First of all I have to say I'm happy that still more people seem to enjoy what I draw as I seeing more people +watch me. A fair warning than is that I usually talk about how things go wrong in my life, not that I'm the only one.

With the utter chaos and competitive pressure in my mind I couldn't get myself to properly learn for the last retake this year and as such I have no hope in making it. The retake is tomorrows so really even if I tried now there wouldn't be anything.
It's pretty obvious that this competitive pressure in my mind is keeping me from working properly and keeps me stressed at all times.
It's a good thing that I'm going to a psychologist. I keep thinking that no one really cares how I feel about it...

Speaking about competitive pressure and things like that I know I keep promising to do commissions and almost never do them in reality. Going from how I'm always stressed it's pretty obvious why I never find time to do so (and also never find time to properly practice figure drawing and such). Hopefully next year will be better.
For the summer I'm thinking of doing commissions and practicing figure drawing at the same time, doing commissions simply to draw something besides boring practice sketches, I guess also because it gives me some fulfillment.
I probably won't start off immediately but hopefully some time coming week.

Also still back on my last journal, I'm still looking for  Pirun's older art, hoping that someone saved it somewhere so I could save those images as well.