You know and may have known for a long time (like me) that you're over your ex, but that they've damaged you to the point of having panicky knee jerk reactions in your current relationship.

It's kind of depressing, but not the worst thing ever.

I've realized that when friends and especially my mate give really short answers, my brain doesn't instantly think "Oh, they're busy." Instead of goes into panic mode and I start thinking I've done or said something wrong and now they're mad. So... I've been conditioned by my ex.

There's other things but roughly the same thing. My ex's behaviors have conditioned me to react to totally not negative reactions like they are and I panic and beg for forgiveness when I've done nothing wrong.

I may be 100% over my ex (meaning I don't want to be with him ever, ever, ever, ever x1000 again) but the damage of the unhealthy relationship is there. I'm going to have to figure out how to work through it somehow.

Sorry guys. I'm not looking for sympathy, I just had a semi-profound moment. lol

Have a great weekend!