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10 years ago
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hahaha no but I really actually hate that.
I can't go more than, what, a year? without changing my fursona. Even if it's something small.
And I know it's the fucking BPD that causes it because it's always out of nowhere. Just "let's reinvent my entire online presence because it needs to happen like right now for reasons".
And what's pissing me off is I fucking love Raptor's current design and don't want it changed. But I do. But I don't. But I do but I don't but I do but
and it fucking drives me batshit.
Sira hardly ever changes any more because she's no longer my primary sona. Let's be honest, she's not quite a fursona anymore. She's gone back to being what she was originally; a character with her own unique backstory and life and personality that ISN'T mine. And I'm grateful for that.
Crosscut hasn't changed much since I made him, which is a miracle considering he IS my secondary fursona.
My non-sona characters hardly ever change, and if they do it's something minor. Case in point? The only changes Rayn has had in the years since I adopted him are that I added horns and a row of scales on his nose.
but Raptor fucking constantly changes and I hate it so much. Why can't I stay consistent. Why can't I be fucking normal.
Hell, you should see the amount of changes Sheo has gone though and you know how special she is to me. Always new differences, small, but better for the character over all You realize it took me 15 years to get her wings ALMOST the way i like them? and i already need to redraw her reff because I changed ANOTHER thing on her lawl
change happens, it's far from a bad thing, and that's why you keep the consistency in your side chars because they don't represent you as...well, YOU. Raptor personifies you as....you....you you you, and you are always changing, getting new ideas, finding out new ways to implement things and all around gaining more knowledge about yourself and it shows in Raptor.
One day, we will see these characters as finally complete lol, even if it isnt for a long time.