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Done moving...
9 years ago
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Am I happy? Is my life returning to normal?
No. I'm still probably not going to draw much for a while, even with all the emotions and ideas running around my head. I don't have the energy. I don't have the emotional clarity.
I never wanted this fucking move.
And I don't know why everyone in my family treats it like it'll be the miracle cure that fixes my depression/anxiety/BPD or mom's myriad of mental and physical issues.
I've been here a week and it feels like forever and I hate it.
I need to save up and move the fuck out as soon as possible.
This isn't my home. Stop calling it that. "Home" is 400 miles away just as miserable and lonely and fucking empty as I am. "Home" is the four furry balls of love that I'll probably never see again-- one due to old age, two because they're being fucking permanently rehomed, and one because with my luck the person taking care of her will decide I gave her to her and will try to keep her. "Home" is the fucking hugs and the "Hey, Raptor, how ya been"s and the happiness I used to know.
sorry for being fucking emo about it. I told my family this wouldn't go well, and they didn't listen.
They never listen.
*hugs*
stay strong yo ;A;
Thanks dude ;A;