Was thinking about Insane Clown Posse, and the cathartic effect of violent music in general, and had an epiphany that connected a couple of conceptual chains together.
It feels awesome when that happens; its that feeling that the epithet "Eureka!" is meant to signify. It feels soooooooooo good.

It's like that one thing Doc Scratch said, something like (missing quote...I am in a humorous dialog with reality, and when I discover some new truth, it is like the delivery of a punchline. I loooooove it.
Just one of the fine perks of being a seeker of fundamental truths. I'm pretty happy :D.

I understand, a lot of why I was able to set on this path in the first place was probably because I didn't have anything to lose, or didn't care about losing those things, but I'm sure, that's why people generally don't do this; it might just cost you more than you'd like in the short term. But it pays off eventually, and it has :D.