I'm having a really bad day and really bad memories because somebody who was rude in the restaurant who was being disruptive to others and I couldn't focus eating and then I told him to calm down before it gets worse. All the sudden he turns back and then started beating me kicking me punching me throwing and fighting me in the restaurant. He said die b**** f***** a****** s*** die die die. I will kill you. You cry like a baby. I hate you. I couldn't get up and then I couldn't eat my food and yhrn went home. And I'm having really terrible horrible sad memories because whenever I am punished severely *sniffles and cries* harshly by my *sniffles and cries* mom for no reason. I tried to think of a way to commit *sniffles and cries* suicide and hurt myself and kill myself to regret *sniffles and cries* my mom what has she done to me for no reason and thinking that she doesn't love me. Also I also had horrible terrible memories my mom got me into a fight in her car and then I jumped out my moms car while it was moving fast on the road in the dark and then I ran for my life in the dark and I ran across the street in the dark where I would get hit by a car and die and then I *sniffles and cries* ran to my other friend house I ran into the house and then quickly ran into the kitchen *sniffles and cries* where I would pull up a very big sharp knife to make myself bleed to death by attempting to cut my own arm open to make blood gushing out until I die to regret my moms harsh cruel severe punishment for no reason whet make her think about what she has done. *sniffles and cry*. *sniffle and cries* somebody please hug me *cries* cries* *cries*