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Fed up -Vent-
10 years ago
~~VENT AHEAD. VERY negative. If you are sensitive or do not give a fuck do not continue reading.~~
I contradict myself more often than not. I have two sides to me and one side is far too dark.. I get so angry and pissed off, so bitter and careless. I hate the world and humans in it. Humans are the base of my hate and will forever be. The other day I was riding in the truck and I saw people ripping down sections of forest, making room for more man made shit. I nearly puked I got so pissed off, I wanted them to die. Im so pissed off at the humans, and all the BULLSHIT that's going on right now. Honestly I wish the end of the world would consume this place already. Yeah I have a shit ton of shit i'd love to do before I die, and im not done here, but this fucking world dude...it makes me want to puke. Go ape shit and just kill as many people as I can get my hands on before police come and sentence me to either life in prison or death. That's pretty fucking bad when the world makes you feel disgusted to be human. Not with their words, but their actions.
Then people have the balls to call ME the crazy one. To call ME the disrespectful one. To call ME insane. To call ME a monster. To call ME an abomination. To call ME a traitor. To tell ME that I'M the motherfucker going to "hell". To call ME paranoid.
Fuck you. If I am a monster it is because the world has made me this way...it is because this world has pushed me beyond the point of breaking. If I am an abomination it is the result of the world- no, MAN. If I am insane it is because I was DRIVEN there! I am the result of today's world...I am man made. And if you do not like the image you see of me- it is all because of the world around us. I was good once. Sweet. Happy. Loving. Caring. I didn't want anyone to suffer, and I thought this world was gorgeous. Until I got older, and watched everything turn to SHIT...until I watched the world crumble around me. Until humans turned me into something man made..
Everyone has been going on leave from DA so much lately over some dark depressing shit. That's understandable. The point is- the world is going black inside and out. The suffering, the horror, the pain, the agony, the fear, the anger, the treachery, the fighting, the depression, the terror of breathing, murder, suicide...all of it will only get worse. And worse. And worse. Until this world implodes upon itself. I've said it once I've said it a billion times and I will say it again: the apocalypse will save this world. Death. Will be our saving fate.
People wonder why there are people like me in this world. People hate people like me in this world. They believe people like me should be killed, locked up, or sealed away in a padded room in the loony bin. No.. We just know the truth and don't fucking sugar coat it. This world has gone to shit, will remain shit, and proceed into deeper shit before it ends in the disgusting tarnished depths of what was once beauty.
People think i'm a freak because I find beauty in death...no. I find beauty in death because the living world is fucking disgusting. Some call me a rat. Maybe I am a rat. And my disease is being human in this junkyard of a world.
I am dark. The world made me the man before you today. Well...this side at least. This side is the one I call "Jacob" - My friendly, happy, understanding, life-loving side is "Jake". Someone well known by those who are fond of me. But the side of me typing this, believes that this world is shit. We are all born to die. Humans are the worst thing out there, and I was CURSED to this earth as one. I cannot stand my reflection because all I see is a human and its disgusting. I want to destroy every mirror in the house.
I no value for any human life I do not truly love to some point. No matter the age, or gender I don't give a single fuck if they all dropped dead. Fed up with the world and wanting to watch it END with a bottle of vodka in hand and my gun.
I contradict myself more often than not. I have two sides to me and one side is far too dark.. I get so angry and pissed off, so bitter and careless. I hate the world and humans in it. Humans are the base of my hate and will forever be. The other day I was riding in the truck and I saw people ripping down sections of forest, making room for more man made shit. I nearly puked I got so pissed off, I wanted them to die. Im so pissed off at the humans, and all the BULLSHIT that's going on right now. Honestly I wish the end of the world would consume this place already. Yeah I have a shit ton of shit i'd love to do before I die, and im not done here, but this fucking world dude...it makes me want to puke. Go ape shit and just kill as many people as I can get my hands on before police come and sentence me to either life in prison or death. That's pretty fucking bad when the world makes you feel disgusted to be human. Not with their words, but their actions.
Then people have the balls to call ME the crazy one. To call ME the disrespectful one. To call ME insane. To call ME a monster. To call ME an abomination. To call ME a traitor. To tell ME that I'M the motherfucker going to "hell". To call ME paranoid.
Fuck you. If I am a monster it is because the world has made me this way...it is because this world has pushed me beyond the point of breaking. If I am an abomination it is the result of the world- no, MAN. If I am insane it is because I was DRIVEN there! I am the result of today's world...I am man made. And if you do not like the image you see of me- it is all because of the world around us. I was good once. Sweet. Happy. Loving. Caring. I didn't want anyone to suffer, and I thought this world was gorgeous. Until I got older, and watched everything turn to SHIT...until I watched the world crumble around me. Until humans turned me into something man made..
Everyone has been going on leave from DA so much lately over some dark depressing shit. That's understandable. The point is- the world is going black inside and out. The suffering, the horror, the pain, the agony, the fear, the anger, the treachery, the fighting, the depression, the terror of breathing, murder, suicide...all of it will only get worse. And worse. And worse. Until this world implodes upon itself. I've said it once I've said it a billion times and I will say it again: the apocalypse will save this world. Death. Will be our saving fate.
People wonder why there are people like me in this world. People hate people like me in this world. They believe people like me should be killed, locked up, or sealed away in a padded room in the loony bin. No.. We just know the truth and don't fucking sugar coat it. This world has gone to shit, will remain shit, and proceed into deeper shit before it ends in the disgusting tarnished depths of what was once beauty.
People think i'm a freak because I find beauty in death...no. I find beauty in death because the living world is fucking disgusting. Some call me a rat. Maybe I am a rat. And my disease is being human in this junkyard of a world.
I am dark. The world made me the man before you today. Well...this side at least. This side is the one I call "Jacob" - My friendly, happy, understanding, life-loving side is "Jake". Someone well known by those who are fond of me. But the side of me typing this, believes that this world is shit. We are all born to die. Humans are the worst thing out there, and I was CURSED to this earth as one. I cannot stand my reflection because all I see is a human and its disgusting. I want to destroy every mirror in the house.
I no value for any human life I do not truly love to some point. No matter the age, or gender I don't give a single fuck if they all dropped dead. Fed up with the world and wanting to watch it END with a bottle of vodka in hand and my gun.
And yet what you see is but the tiniest fraction of the world. I suggest you give this a listen (and in fact listen to the other podcasts too cause they fucking awesome :U ) you might be surprised...
The only thing "Strong" about a human is the fact that our body can take the most brutal of injury and survive. Then again, we also see how WEAK we are in our body as well. How easy it is to break our bones and rip our organs open.
We are just a weak species. Below all else. The only reason we're where we are now is because we have machines. That's it. We need machines and weapons to make us strong. How pathetic is that.
by ruling out natures design we have sentenced ourselves to misery and slow, slow death.
I've wanted to leave away for quite some time now, but if I ever did retreat it'd be somewhere deep in the forest with no electronics but my cheap ol' phone with shit service out there. And if I did decide to leave, my opinion on the world and the reality of it would not change. My view is real and here to stay for as long as I breathe.
But I don't want to leave behind long distance friends, nor any of you guys here on FA or DA over some people that piss me off.
All I can do now, is wait for the apocalypse.
I will indeed be becoming more fond on the block mechanism.
Thank you man