The reason -- As you all know, i have an addiction to making characters. I never saw a problem with this until now. Now i realize that i feel like the creativity, the life, the meaning of characters and art has just gone from me. I say i love all my characters, and i do, but i love their designs, not them. This has become rather empty hoarding and i'm ready to admit it is a real problem for me. It's drained the creativity right out of me. It's supposed to be fun to draw, you're supposed to be able to express yourself in ways you cannot put into words through art; from the colors you use, to the textures, to the expressions and the poses. Hidden hints even if you're one to draw something with underlying meaning. And...i just don't feel it anymore. It feels like they're just floating around without meaning. Like foam blocks in a pool. Blank, unused, and just kind of...well drifting about with no meaning. I don't want it to feel this way anymore.

As for a fursona, it feels like no one knows who it is because i'm constantly changing. And recently it's really been weighing on me. Your fursona is supposed to represent YOU- people are supposed to recognize them as YOU- your character, and your alone. They're supposed to be able to click a name typed on a screen with the face of your fursona. That's what they're supposed to represent and it feels like...i dont have one. Because i dont. Im just someone who draws without a face basically. That's what it's beginning to feel like, and it's made me so unhappy recently. I want that life back, i want that colorful feeling. I want that happiness again. I want to be able to truly feel like im representing and expressing myself through my art. That's what makes art so beautiful in my opinion. Like how tons of people have their own distinctive style; some people can see a thumbnail and instantly click a name to the artist who did it. There's sooo much stability in those types of artists and i honestly want to be one of them. I want that stability. This account, these characters, this art style it just feels so very...empty. Running on fumes. Struggling. I can't do it anymore.

I have to make a change, and start fresh. I have to DO SOMETHING about this, and i believe my best option is to make a new account for that fresh feeling. For that new start. I'm even strongly considering getting an art tablet to aid with my drawing, maybe testing a few other drawing programs to play with and experiment with my style to find something that fits ME. Something that feels like me, and i can do easily and happily.

When If you've gotten this far, thank you so much for reading this. Know that I will post another journal with all the characters i will be selling. There will be more information there. This one however, is about moving.

Said move will happen when I have found myself in a fursona i feel truly happy with, no matter how long it takes. Even if i have to wait for my tablet. I will set up the account, and post another journal once all is ready and set up, revealing my new account! I will let it sit for a week or two with updates here and there to make sure everyone has seen and read this. Followed my new account if you guys wished. Ect. Once that time period is up, I will be deleting/deactivating/whatever the fucking this account. u