I don't know what to do now
10 years ago
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My first ever boyfriend dumped me
He said he loved me. I was his dime. I was special. Even though I am fucked up with depression, low self esteem, and generally struggling with life. I don't want to be that weak human being, but I am struggling to get by every day.
He left me overnight. I was blindsided. We were struggling to make it work. I caught him talking to another person but he said I didn't have to worry and we were just friends. He told me to keep fighting. So I did, but he left me like I was nothing.
I see him now with this new person. He told me he really likes her, even though I didn't want to hear it. He said he cheated. He was done.
I was in love with him. He was my dime. Every day is a struggle to survive
What do I do now?
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He cheated you. He exchanged you for an other person. Things that happened should happen. It isn't great but finally you got the truth. Maybe he changed. Maybe he was like this from the beginning. You can't know that but it also doesn't matter. If it didn't happen with that woman... it would happen with an other.
So, try to change your mind.
Look there many other peoples and your young. It's not the end. You will find that person that fits you, that really loves you and that stays by your side. It could take some time. Some people could hurt you... that's life. You are learning it by doing it.
Be self confident. It was your first relationship. You learned a lot. It will help you to have a great relationship with Mr. Right.
Just think of it and please don't dump yourself. I have done this some time ago. It haven't helped myself.
(English is my third language, I'm sorry if it is quite incorrect)
I hope you feel better soon. Loss like this always hurts.
Get your life where you want it to be first, THEN look for romance. IF you haven't found it by then.
In the meantime, revel in your prolific talent, use it to heal, channel that disappointment and regret and make something beautiful out of it. You'll live on and you don't need anyone else to validate that. You be well, now!
that said, i'm sorry to hear, and i hope you start feeling better soon.
Stay strong, no matter how many obstacles come your way!