Life has kept me pretty busy, and kinda depressed to be honest. I've lost quite a few friends because I've been too busy, I'm 98% sure that my family hates me. I have nothing good going on in my life. No money, no health insurance, an injured knee, no car (because no money for gas), no family I can turn to (because I don't trust them), barely any friends I can go to (most have left me), yeah. pretty much nothing. I want to move away, but I have nowhere to go and no money to go anywhere. Oh what's even worse is that marching band next semester is basically ruining my chances to work. So I won't be making any money because my parents forced me to do marching band. I will have no time for classes... Meh I won't get into this. But yeah. My birthday sucked, too. The only thing I got was a lucario plushie from the one person who's closest to me, and I can't thank you enough for that. Usually a birthday is for gifts right? celebrating with family and friends, getting gifts and stuff. I got NOTHING. Well, that's a lie. I got an injured knee. Does that count? Yeah, didn't think so.

Anyway, I don't like being all negative so I'll change that right now. On a more positive note, I will be posting a lot of my cover songs that I recorded on saxophone within the next few days, I finished about 25-30 of them, I just need to post to youtube, then onto here. So yay that's almost done.

Now here's the reason why I want everyone to read, because I have a VERY important decision to make. If you don't know, I have pretty bad social anxiety, so bad that I can't even talk to anyone on the phone or even a group of 3 people in person. Well. Here's what I want to do. People have told me that I'm good at saxophone..... So... I've been debating on auditioning for America's Got Talent. Now... I need to know what to do..... Please tell me... I want you all to listen to my recording and let me know if 1) I'm good enough to audition, and 2) if I should go for it or not. The only reason why I won't is because of my anxiety. I mean.... Going up on stage in front of... America, well that'll kill me. But would it be worth the risk? Should I go for it? Risk either doing terrible and embarrassing myself in front of America, or risk nothing and doing amazing and making it through.. What do you think I should do? should I risk pretty much everything to audition, or should I play it safe and just stay away? Please, I need everyone's opinion on this, I need everyone who reads this to comment their opinion. please...