I am at a point right now in my life where I just want to give up. Nothing I do seems to go right and every thing I do goes wrong. Friends are leaving me and/or moving on or just leaving me in general cause they don’t like how things are going for me I guess. I just know this year again is not going well again. Several things have gotten worse for me to the point I am wanting to give in. First part of the year this year I have had a large part of the furry fandom hating me for reason I do not know. From what I can tell a lot of people where upset cause Jewlz and Rayless decided that they don’t want to help with my New Years Fur Bash. I am sorry so many are upset for what they decided to but that is their wishes and I respect that. With their decision I was getting cut down, called names and everything else under the sun but I kept my mouth shut and never said anything because that was their chose and I respect that. I was at one point not wanting to have the New Years Fur Bash anymore cause of the problem I was having with the fur community and how I was feeling about but I am going to try and have it still. I just feel its not going to be as big as it was in the past now.
The other thing I have been think of is anymore I think I am going to stop trying to make plans and doing anything with people. I have noticed that a lot of people anymore that will make plans with me only not to keep them. I do understand some work on the weekend and things come up but anymore it seems like its all the time. I am getting to where I do not want to make plans any more cause I don’t want to get my hopes up and have them crushed. Not many people are talking to more as well. On Skype I am not in anymore group chats cause it seems like when ever I say something in on I kill the chat and no one IM me on it as well in a month. Same as in texting as well unless some one needing something. Oh for those that group text me it doesn’t work right on my cell and pics don’t work that well for me as well. I try to text or even message on Skype but besides a couple all go unanswered anymore.
Another Very bad thing that has happened this year is have a large amount of money taken from me. There was a friend that I was helping out as well as my grandfather and he was with out a home and no job. He was staying with us till he got on his feet and well within the last week we found out he was stealing from us. He stole my grandfather credit card and stole coins that I was saving since I was 14 (over $800 worth just to use at face value). I am working with the police trying to get evidence on him on the coins but we do have him on the card. I am hurting bad from this. I help this guy out every way I could. I even lend him money I have had saved up for AC 2015 to the point I couldn’t go and yet he just steals from me with out a care. Well I don’t feel sorry for him being homeless and jobless now for I see it is his own doing and fault.
Sorry about this long drama speech but I just needed a vent. I know that there is a very few I can trust up north but that’s about it and I do thank you for being there for me and I am sorry to the rest for this page of a vent.