Well… i thing that no much if here know why i drew so much vents like an idiot… you may thing, “why the fuck don’t speak about what’s going on or why he doesn’t forget the problems or why i have a such negative personality with some people when i speak some kind of topics, well it’s time that know all the truth
No much people know that I study a career that I really hate so fucking much , about 3 years ago I really was a lazy person, and my parents decide sign me at this career cause I really don’t do anything about to be a better person… when I make this stupid mistake, now I study logistic by my parents’ wishes and not mine
I’ll say this with pride, I was tried to pass 8 time the admission exam to a university called “UAM” in the design and graphic communication more know as graphic design…. 8 TIMES!.. 8!, The 8th try was some weeks ago and the results of this was this Friday, as you can imagine i fail the 8th try at this exam ,The UAM didn’t accept me again, feeling like a fucking idiot cause I tried 8 fucking times , can you believe it? *sighs*
There are so much quotes that say “ never give up” or “no matter how many times you tried, the victory will be awesome” “your destiny is waiting you” “if you collect love, dreams and selfish decisions you will make it” “nobody can stop you … just you can” was all my inspiration that wake me up again and again and again, the support that much of you bring me cause you know what happened to me and the pain that I face everyday .. I really thank all of them about that amazing support … but the pain and the reality are saying to me that is time to give up ….. no more pain and face what I need to finish… even if it hurts me and refuses the way that I really choose
I cried, cry and will cry, for more melodramatic pussy as it sounds, that is the reality I hate face each day … that feel of pain about “never be what you wanna be” ... can feel the heaviness or pleasure about do what you like….. never be honest to myself ( thing that I really hate about me ) the few persons that I disappoint, effort thrown away, enjoy that false feel of shade victory, the people telling me that I need to face the reality and accept that I really was in a career like it or not, mockery, everything
Hurts .. and so much been beaten by the life as itself and worst, can’t do anything
I apologize about all this drama… I really there are things that somebody need to say, and been a little honest with all on here …. Thanks for taking the time to really all my stupid things

see you soon