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Any interest in commissions? - More complex stuff about life
10 years ago
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This is going to be 2 journals in one cause I don't see why I should spread this out when I know what i want to write now.
Top will be about commissions, bottom will be about life stuff.
Commissions:
Seeing as my family is starting to get financial problems it starts to force more and more upon me that I need to earn money as well, get a job and all that. I will try to look for a side job but of course the most preferred way for me would be for me to earn it by doing commissions. Obviously I'm not that good and definitely not fast enough to really properly earn enough to get by with but at least I can try to show that it does earn me something, that's my way of thinking anyway.
So anyway I hope anyone is interested
Most info can be found here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14704099/
I will have to update this at some other time, my gallery has enough to show what you can expect.
I'm actually not that interested in drawing backgrounds at the moment.
There's also a little update I want to do about my preferences. This is for a few things that you don't have to include at all, but I will simply enjoy it a lot:
- One of the main things I like to draw are characters in a extremely skimpy or even completely revealing outfits, both male and female characters. You can either come up with a outfit idea or let me try come up with something myself.
- Massage stuff is fun, one character being gently rubbed in different places, the other character can do that by hand, other body part or just rub his entire body all over, because why not.
- (The weirdest one probably) I've not drawn it before but I've been wanting to draw it for a while now, it's sounding and urethral fucking. If you're not into that than don't worry about it.
I think that will do for now, please note me if you're interested.
Again please mind that I'm not fast at making these.
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Life stuff!
Over the course of the last weeks, months, idk, I start to realize more and more what I miss in life. It's to socialize to meet new people and know them more. At the same time I see missed opportunities, people fading away before I even knew them, I should've, before I fade away as well. Today I read it's the same thing, one of my best online friends put up a journal about the passing of his friend, a person I might've known, I might've wanted to know more, but now it's not possible anymore.
I'm slowly trying to step over the things I'm ashamed of and find more regret for what I haven't done, haven't explored because being afraid that others might react in a really negative way because by them it's considered not normal. I've been pushed that way by my father during my childhood in his idealistic way of what I should be, should like and what I shouldn't like. He's not in my way anymore but that same line of thought kept going and is still damaging me. I only kept looking at what's the most practical and ideal way, make friends at school and what not. But honestly I already wanted to get in this artist community long ago, it's what interest me more. The whole 'oh this is furry stuff' kept me away a bit but I don't even know why anymore. What I come to understand more is that, yes I do want to make contact with people and why would I need to keep forcing myself to do so with people I don't share interests with. In a more practical way, yes because these people live close to me, but in a more honest way I truly actually want to meet people that also draw things that I draw and things like that. I want to meet other artists and other people I know here, that's kinde what I'm getting to. I hope to get more out there and meet people I know online.
It's going to be tricky because not everyone lives in Europe, I have a fear of flying and I also fear of what things might happen in those other places. Particularity the US cause all I think of is higher crime rates and people randomly carrying guns around as silly as that thought might be. Seeing as the US is far larger than Europe, those things might only happen in a certain part of the US. I'll have to overcome this at a certain point.
Another thing that kept me from making contact with other people is the thought I had to deserve to talk to them. My only way to pay that off was to show that with art, struggling to be worth talking to. Such thought of being worth communicating with isn't uncommon, for example I didn't dare to talk to some of my favorite artists for the longest time because I didn't feel like I was worth it. However they are people too, they also want to communicate, just talk about whatever. Just because a person is way better at art than you doesn't mean you can't talk to them. So to that point I also start to realize more that I can just talk to people if I wanted to.
I do slowly am building up the courage and slowly starting get out of my shell and meet people. For example I'll be going to Eurofurence in a couple of weeks. It's the first Furry convention I'll be going to, hopefully I'll meet some people there, I already know that Vader-san is going there so that's going to being to meet him in person.
This will be the first step for me to finally start enjoying my life.
Top will be about commissions, bottom will be about life stuff.
Commissions:
Seeing as my family is starting to get financial problems it starts to force more and more upon me that I need to earn money as well, get a job and all that. I will try to look for a side job but of course the most preferred way for me would be for me to earn it by doing commissions. Obviously I'm not that good and definitely not fast enough to really properly earn enough to get by with but at least I can try to show that it does earn me something, that's my way of thinking anyway.
So anyway I hope anyone is interested
Most info can be found here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14704099/
I will have to update this at some other time, my gallery has enough to show what you can expect.
I'm actually not that interested in drawing backgrounds at the moment.
There's also a little update I want to do about my preferences. This is for a few things that you don't have to include at all, but I will simply enjoy it a lot:
- One of the main things I like to draw are characters in a extremely skimpy or even completely revealing outfits, both male and female characters. You can either come up with a outfit idea or let me try come up with something myself.
- Massage stuff is fun, one character being gently rubbed in different places, the other character can do that by hand, other body part or just rub his entire body all over, because why not.
- (The weirdest one probably) I've not drawn it before but I've been wanting to draw it for a while now, it's sounding and urethral fucking. If you're not into that than don't worry about it.
I think that will do for now, please note me if you're interested.
Again please mind that I'm not fast at making these.
_______________________________________________________________________________________________________
Life stuff!
Over the course of the last weeks, months, idk, I start to realize more and more what I miss in life. It's to socialize to meet new people and know them more. At the same time I see missed opportunities, people fading away before I even knew them, I should've, before I fade away as well. Today I read it's the same thing, one of my best online friends put up a journal about the passing of his friend, a person I might've known, I might've wanted to know more, but now it's not possible anymore.
I'm slowly trying to step over the things I'm ashamed of and find more regret for what I haven't done, haven't explored because being afraid that others might react in a really negative way because by them it's considered not normal. I've been pushed that way by my father during my childhood in his idealistic way of what I should be, should like and what I shouldn't like. He's not in my way anymore but that same line of thought kept going and is still damaging me. I only kept looking at what's the most practical and ideal way, make friends at school and what not. But honestly I already wanted to get in this artist community long ago, it's what interest me more. The whole 'oh this is furry stuff' kept me away a bit but I don't even know why anymore. What I come to understand more is that, yes I do want to make contact with people and why would I need to keep forcing myself to do so with people I don't share interests with. In a more practical way, yes because these people live close to me, but in a more honest way I truly actually want to meet people that also draw things that I draw and things like that. I want to meet other artists and other people I know here, that's kinde what I'm getting to. I hope to get more out there and meet people I know online.
It's going to be tricky because not everyone lives in Europe, I have a fear of flying and I also fear of what things might happen in those other places. Particularity the US cause all I think of is higher crime rates and people randomly carrying guns around as silly as that thought might be. Seeing as the US is far larger than Europe, those things might only happen in a certain part of the US. I'll have to overcome this at a certain point.
Another thing that kept me from making contact with other people is the thought I had to deserve to talk to them. My only way to pay that off was to show that with art, struggling to be worth talking to. Such thought of being worth communicating with isn't uncommon, for example I didn't dare to talk to some of my favorite artists for the longest time because I didn't feel like I was worth it. However they are people too, they also want to communicate, just talk about whatever. Just because a person is way better at art than you doesn't mean you can't talk to them. So to that point I also start to realize more that I can just talk to people if I wanted to.
I do slowly am building up the courage and slowly starting get out of my shell and meet people. For example I'll be going to Eurofurence in a couple of weeks. It's the first Furry convention I'll be going to, hopefully I'll meet some people there, I already know that Vader-san is going there so that's going to being to meet him in person.
This will be the first step for me to finally start enjoying my life.
For your live situation I think personally its easier to contact people online as it is in reality. Myself is struggling still some in meeting people in reality as costs and travel are in most cases involed
online ont he other hand you have little to lose, poping up saying he is not so hard once you jump over your shadow of your father there. and I think your get willing to do this jump soon I guess.
the only tricky part probally is hold a conversation alive. but i noticed if you know a common intresst or to, its enogth material to have at last a starting conversation in with one can find out about the other and get to know each other. often from there it continues from its own. If you guys like anoher furutre conversations should be not a issue. and if you dislike each other you probally feel a 'distance' already in the first conversation.
Hope this encourages you a bit to talk with people. Also I noticed alot people are NOT conversation starters.
Starting a conversation is actually harder for me than to hold one. I can always come up with all kinds of fun science facts that I know.
As for the commission info, I'll be logged into steam all day.