I have been scolded multiple times for things others are left alone for, or even celebrated for, and stroke down whenever I spoke in my defense. I was claimed to be protected from "the evils of the world" but in exchange, received a greater evil, forcing me to back down and pretend I'm not doing "sins". I was given a position, where a single love for porn, something that should not be feared and punished, is suddenly made the reason they pump me full of rage, then question why I am so angry at them, why I hate them, and those who taught them the unjust ways of forbidding nonsense. Why, I ask, am I locked down under the title of "love" and "care"? Can't you see I can only see the strict parent that ruined my youth? Can't you see I want my life to be more serious, to have it's sexual taste? Why you want to shove down on my throat such sentimental vomit? Why do you still fight to keep me down? The first time I was given a chance to speak for myself, to tell stories YOU are too stupid to even acknowledge, why do you still fight it? YOU, and I mean YOU are the reason of my mental breakdown. You are the reason of my Tantrums. If they are symptoms, and not my rightful reactions, my well deserved retaliation. You used to be my best bet to cope with bullies in school. But the bullies are gone, and instead... You came! You outlived your welcome. You want me to give up things I have full right to enjoy. And you're too close-minded for me to even have the courage to say it into your eyes. But soon... Soon, if I don't manage to break out, I will tear off the mask of "love and care" you wear, and Show you what it really means to me!!! That it horribly disgusts me! That it's just makes me cry in pain. The very point of my life shall not be all sentimental and Bubbly! Your sentimental world hurts me deeply. And I won't just sit down and take your "love". I will stop all the hugs, all the touched cries, all the pride you have in me, because I was "what you expected", what "you wanted" me to be. And I will replace it with a proper sexual life, an adventurer's kit, a decent military collection, and all the music, movies, and games that stomp your oppressive beliefs to the ground!