I feel the same way :/ I feel super awkward trying to commission vent art...

Yeah , I feel even if I did find an artist it is hard to convey to the emotion that I would be looking for, and at the moment I feel the only way I can vent is through journals which isn't really the way I want to vent for an art site because I find almost no one reads any of my journals sept maybe a small handful of people .

It is really hard to draw others peoples' fellings. They're not you, and maybe wouldn't react the same way to the same situation.
I think you have to find some art which kind of portray the way you feel, show the pictures to the artist you find to go in that direction.
If that made sense x3