Pushing people away from me, lashing out, getting nasty and angry..It's something I always have done when I start slipping into that lovely 'dark and depressed place'

The place in my mind where I'm thinking stupidity, stupid things, hurtful things, escape, escape, escape, escape.

I start shoving people away so when I go down that slope, no one's coming with me, and no one's around to get the shit that comes up, splattered on them.

to me, pushing people out of my life and away -saves them from whatever I do that is destructive.

So if I don't speak with you, or I do and it's nasty and snarly, it's to get whoever it is away from me, out of the picture.

Also something else, If you ask me how I'm doing and or feeling, and then I unload the whole thing, if you cannot take it, or don't want to hear it, then don't ASK HOW IM DOING.