why is it sometimes you cant get someone out of your mind???
why is it i cant ever get her out of my mind
all day every day

its the same i wake and find myself alone
i cant seem to get teh feeling out of my heart or my head
i cant describe what i think when i think of her
glorious,magnifisant......dream like thoughts

my head spins for hours a night thinking about her
is she ok ? is she hurt ? is she happy ? is she living teh life she truly deserves?
questions.....
to many to count
fears......
to many to fathom

i have met many a people
but none like her ....
the way she moves ... the way she talks , its intoxicating
like teh very air and smoke i breathe....
it feels like a drug to be with her
but the feeling never fades
you feel high , you get more butterflies in your stomach
than youve ever had
the kisses she gave me ....
were stronger than any vodka
were sweeter than sugar
and drove me mad just to get another


her eyes pierce deep inside me when she looked at me
she saw something in me that i have yet to figure out
i cannot explain how or why she stumbled across me
but it was supposed to happen

i dont know what for

i feel liek im in withdrawl from this drug
im lost without it
i dont want money
i can hardly eat
im loosing weight to fast
i feel sick
i feel angry
i feel sad


i feel forgotten and left behind
like last weeks news....
a crumpled paper in teh trash can

as i sit here in my room on my bed
i hold my cigarette in one hand
the other typing

i think of everything that i want with her ......


i think of the many things that we used to talk about ....


and it allways goes to one memory

painfull,sad,tears

its like a slide show of good and bad

i have no control

someone else is pressing teh buttons
i cant move
i cant see




im all alone...........