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State of Affairs (An update if you will)
10 years ago
This is just a quick update for you guys on a count that I haven't posted anything in a little while><
I apologize on my spacious posting and lack of story writing, but this isn't really an excuse...
We had to put my dog down last month on the 20th.
Ever since then, I haven't really accepted the fact that he is gone because I'm still expecting him to come around the corner for me to pick him up and pop him onto my lap. He lived for a good 13 years. 13 years of him being there whenever I needed him. 13 years of him being by my side. He's seen me go into Middle school, he's been there when I got into high school and he was at my high school graduation. Through the good times and the bad times, he's been my little pug buddy whom I'd snuggle and hold onto as well as he was a member of our family.
On my day's off, whenever someone asked me if I was home alone, I'd tell them that I'm not alone cause I have my dog cuddling with me. I'm alone now. My mind knows he is gone but my heart can't accept that he's gone cause I'm constantly looking for him around the house, assuming things like "oh he's probably with my parents or laying somewhere else" but in reality, he isn't thee any more.
Plus, I've been getting into liquor pretty heavily since his passing. Despite me being a heavy drinker, I know its not all too good for my system. (but on the bright side its given me a beer gut for you stomach lovers I guess) but aside from my heavy drinking, his passing has almost obliterated my writing prowess. Sure I write up little snippets for art, but I haven't really had the passion, the drive or the want to continue the projects that I have started and such. Which isn't fair to those who've been waiting to get a story from me.
The point of this journal is not for attention, or anything. Its just a notice in away for you guys to know that I'm trying to get back into the swing of things with my posts and such but in due time I'll be back on my feet, but please understand that albeit I'm a big wolf, I'm still human and I have my battles to fight.
Thank you for your understanding and enjoy your day or night or whatever~
I appreciate it greatly ~
Plus you and everyone knows they can come to me for help and what not ~
Its been pretty tough the past month really ><
Cause once he is gone (god forbid its any time soon) you will really feel the impact he left on your life.
As mine did to my life. Everyday feels different than the last one cause he's not there to greet me at the door or bark at me to give him some of my food or even just to give me a few licks on my cheek for no reason.
But on the bright side, he's still cuddling my heart and I have to hold on to those memories and I will until the day I get to hold him in my arms again.
But as I said before, god forbid I'm gone anytime soon ^^
Plus, thank you very much my wuffle buddy. Same to you if you ever need anyone to talk to about anything, just give me a poke ^^
*Gives you a hug* I hope you feel better & talk to me if things get rough ok?
Wishing you well. <:3