Well, I have been chasing my ex around, hoping that she would see them light and come back to me unfortunately that never happened so I spent the last two years and still chasing her around hopelessly,, bu i have recently realized it's never going to happen with her. I needed to move on and I am actually able to mentally move on it just took a couple a years a lot of depression a couple of suicide attempts and lithium to become normal again. Good thing that came from all that pain and torture I now have Social Security I am retired happily retired for the rest of my days I don't have to work. God how I would like to work. But there are days where I cannot get out of bed till 5pm, there are nights that I wake up screaming mad at nothing. I am bi-polar, manic depressive and schizo-affective. I'm OK though, I have my lithium and that is all I need. Well besides weed and nicotine. I lost 160# changing a eating disorder to a cigarette habbit. I am down to 135#, I have not been this skinny since ATLEAST 5th grade. =:). Now I am back in my home town of Fair Oaks California. Old Fair oaks that is. Plaza park, village market, red bridge and the river , the old haunted library building. It's all still just about the same as when I left it except for a few things for instance the elementary school is no longer an elementary school it is a homeschool. They had whitewashed the murals inside the cafeteria and the pre school has been white washed as well. Is nothing sacred anymore?? I am re-typing my play. I wrote a Shakespearian play that has Shakespeare, the Beastie boys, and back to the future in it.