Well.. it's finally over..



Three weeks ago we learned the news of her illness, and it hit us hard, but I didn't want to say goodbye to her just yet. Excuse me for seeming like a horrible person, but I didn't want to go to Eurofurence with a sad heart. I gave Mahjong a lot of attention before going, and was super happy to see she was still there when I got back.

But she was eating less and less, and her breathing increased with every day, even then she would cheerfully come downstairs and approach me for some attention. Most of the time she would just lie on the living room floor, something she's never done before, and whenever I brought out the laser pen, she'd still come to me and wait for me to start playing. She would rarely reach out for the red dot, but that was enough for me.

Then on monday, she would eat maybe one or two bites, before giving up. We had to make a decision then, and so we did. We decided to take her to the vet and send her off into the afterlife. Catching her was easy, her secret base was still in my closet where I could reach her with no problem. I pinned her down on my bed, causing her to let loose some fluids like she's always done when in panic, and waited for my mom to bring the carrier, then quickly shoved her into it and let her calm down a bit.

At the vet, we were told that they used to give pets shots to calm them down before giving them the final one, but that it might result in pets throwing up or not reacting to the final shot at first, so we decided to let the first shot be her last, and once she got it, she calmed down instantly. She was rolled on her side as she looked at us with those big, colorful eyes until the vet stated her heart had stopped beating. I thought I had shed every tear I had to offer, but I was wrong. I stayed by her side a little longer while my mom payed the vet. I picked her up and held her over my shoulder, something I wouldn't have dreamed of when she was still alive, but it made me happy, it truly did.

Here's a video I took before we decided to bring her:


Finally, I dedicate this verse from "Lullaby for a Princess" by Ponyphonic to Mahjong, may she rest in peace:

I love you; I miss you
All these miles away

May all your dreams be sweet tonight
Safe upon your bed of moonlight
And know not of sadness, pain, or care
And when I dream, I'll fly away and meet you there
Sleep
Sleep
Sleep...