New arrivals, new promises and new responsibilities. It's time for me to transcend to the next stages of life. Yeah, I know that sounds kinda dramatic, but a lot has changed since winter and I think, along with a lot of people I believe, that spring is more a time for revolutions than the time of year that New Years falls. Spring cleaning if you will.

So, I'm through smoking that is unless I'm drinking which only happens at social get-togethers which would certainly cut back a lot. I know, I've said I'm going to completely a few times and people I know are probably really disappointed in me. Let me tell you though, it's incredibly hard to quit when pretty much all your friends smoke. When combined with the want for nicotine, peer-pressure does become a bitch in a way. Your mind tells you that you haven't been smoking long, that one smoke isn't gonna matter and sometimes you forget altogether that it's a major health concern. I feel weak both mentally and physically and I'm tired of it. No one is going to take the reigns of my life but me and I'm sick of feeling that's it too late all the time. Sick of feeling scared that I'm going to lose all my hair then die. If I had to replace one vice with another I'd rather be drinking my liver to death rather than be poisoning my lungs. Neither is good, I know, but I'm just saying that's how much I've come to hate it. So when I have nicotine cravings I'm gonna draw instead. That in itself is productive in so many ways. (If you're tired of me talking about her, this might not be a sentence to read!) If Shirley Manson is my rolemodel which I don't think anyone would doubt and she was able to quit smoking than I'm gonna follow suit with that specific task. She had to have an epiphany when bearing witness to a friend developing throat cancer and being unable to sing any longer. Today is my final epiphany and I hope that as long as I take as much responcibility as I can that people will also remind me of the promise I have made today.

I'm drawing again. I think I have a lot more patience to do so now and I've set myself some goals. Points in tome where I'll check my progression and see what I have to improve upon. My boyfriend is being very supportive and pokes at me to see my art which makes drawing feel great. I'm like a kid in that sense, I'm very much inspired to continue on by praise. Like a child who gets his scribblings posted on the fridge, I get all excited and want to make more. In fact, I'm doing it now while being hyped on coffee and watching the Comedy Network. It's sad though as I'm watching Micheal J. Fox on the Jon Stewart Show and it saddens me in a way though he pulls through. Anyway, these drawing activities will hopefully not get in the way of my projects, academic or otherwise. And I'm pleased to say that my high school academic career will soon be over. Only a few months to go till it's all over for at least a year. Huzzah!!!

Finally, as I don't want to make my life too hectic, I want to begin working out. Nothing too extreme at the moment. Just home stuff like push ups, sit ups, squats, weight lifting and biking. Just some things to tone the body and force my lungs to rebuild themselves. I would like to improve my body inside and out and this is a start. I might even get back into free-running if I can take it far enough. I'm gonna be a bit more in shape for June.

I'm done ranting now. I love you all of you and I hope everyone's feeling the spring fling after those flash days of the last snow have come and gone. Here's to hoping everyone feels the joy in the warming weather. Cheers everyone!