I've been in a slump. I realized the passion for what I've been doing has diminished. or at least that's what it feels like. This thought passing my mind caused a lot of internal debate and worry. i had to sort things out in my mind. I was kicking myself asking why I feel so non compelled to hit up my mixer. why this near sudden lack of passion. it just seems so uncharacteristic of me. there had to be something different. something that's changed about my circumstance. I asked myself, is DJing something you want to do? The answer I think is yes, but why then have i felt so slumped. I thought about my music. I clearly do still do enjoy it, but i think what's changed isn't the love of the music. i think it's something else entirely.

A while ago now, my headphone jack on my phone broke, leaving me unable to listen to tunes on the go, which may have had more of an impact than i thought it would. I took a second before i wrote this to evaluate how much I've actually been listening to any of my music lately, and when i thought about it, i realized my listening has been reduced to the few minutes i t take to change for work in the change room, for a bit when im home, and only through crappy phone speakers while walking sometimes. when I'm out and about with my music, I seem to enjoy it the most while I'm out and about, and through good headphones because I get to be active with it, and I haven't been able to do so for a while now.

This has had a bigger impact on me than I thought. without the ability to enjoy my music to the fullest like usual, I've fallen into a slump without realizing it. I'm a much happier bubblier person when I can really enjoy my tunes. They are my inspiration. They are a driving force for me, and without them, i lost my inspiration and fell into a bit of a depression. I don't like what this has done to me at all. I need t get my phone fixed or get some bluetooth headphones asap. I want to return to that musical land in which i have so much god damn fun.