Not really happy with my mom right now..

Been telling her all year something is wrong, but she just kept believing it was negative energy and that she was otherwise fine. Her and being damned spiritual and never listing to reason. I have a long track record of being right with in my circle of friends and family and I'm always ignored. It pisses me off. They are still doing tests, but if it REALLY pancreatic cancer than theirs not much that can be done. A pancreatic cancer diagnosis is basically a death sentence. The five-year survival rate is 6 percent at best.

Only hope now is 1) its not Pancreatic Cancer, or 2) Some magical drug gets to the market soon.

I am very livid right now, I so didn't need this, my life up to now has always been terrible I keep a lot of it under wraps, but those who know me know that yeah I've gone through shit, and often had to be the one to lift everyone else out of the muck, even when I can barely take care of my self (Autistic, Dyslexic, ADHD, Clinical Depression...) but I moved forward because I had too, and people where counting on me and depending on me. People some who where in better situations than I, still depended on me to bail them out.

Family whom where in good situations, never lifted a finger to help out. I just don't understand this, How does this species function like this.

I really better not be cancer or I'm going to be very un happy with my mother. This didn't need to happen.