I'm so sorry things went in that direction, hun. Even worse that you went down to him and it ended there. I know how it feels to lose in love. And it will hurt for a long while. But don't let yourself fall into darkness. He was just one man. There are many in this world. If I gave up after being tossed aside more than once I wouldn't have found love with my mate, Ravtrag. So I say to you to not give up yourself. Take some time away from love but don't give up on it outright.

As for your gallery, I suggest a content purge. I've done it myself in the past. And as with commissions just talk to the artist's about it. I'm sure they'll understand and if they have put some work on it perhaps at least you can get some return from it. But definitely talk to them about this, especially if any of the commissions have your ex involved.

Please don't end your life over this. You aren't ugly and your certainly not stupid. Definitely not a loser in my books. Just take some time and sit back. Maybe think of what you could do to improve your life from this point. Maybe re-evaluate what you'd need in someone should you go looking for love again.

You have me on skype so if we're both around we can talk. For now I must rest as I work tomorrow. Please be safe, Truttle. *hugs*

Thanks hun. It hurts so much that this went on for 5 years to just end after just one week and on my birthday. I really could use a friend to talk to. Thanks so much.

Anytime, hun. *softly bear hugs ya*

You deserve much better, don't forget that, you're gunna get plenty more chances in this life to find the true mate of your dreams, and even then, you still have your very caring friends, and I want to be there for you.

Please don't end your life, I swear, Truttle, I know it may seem selfish but I'll truly be sad if that happened.

And after seeing you open your heart up so much to someone and what kind of person you have been through the years I've known you, you're definitely not ugly stupid or a loser, you're kind, gentle, warm, loving and cute on top of everything, I swear it.

Even if you don't come back here, know that you can always talk to me. I haven't been as good or active as a friend as I'd like to be for you, but I really will keep trying to be more, and for more than this as a reason but because I want to be. I care about you a lot Truttle.

Do your best, take care of yourself, and when your best isn't good enough, when you try too much, I'll be around to help lift ya up. Don't be afraid to poke me, and I'll keep checking up on you~

Thanks so much Spec. This has been the most painful experience of my life. If it hadn't gone on for over 5 years, perhaps it wouldn't have been so bad. I had so many hopes and dreams set on this. I put everything on the line. I'm sort of lost now and am running on autopilot. I've lost my purpose. I really could use a friend to talk to.

I'm here bud, just got done with djnner, but you can feel free to write or call on Skype if you want to, Jabberz is perfectly fine with chilling and talking with you too, so I'll shoot your Skype to him too. We both get Thursday off too so maybe we can get together to chill too!

Thanks. I appreciate your concern. I don't know what's going to happen. I've lost my purpose and have sort of run out of tears so I'm running on autopilot. Not sure how long that will hold out but I'll try my best.

Ooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuch! *hugs*
No! No! No! Don't end your life because you two broke up!
I seen an irl photo of you awhile back and i must say that you're not a bad looking bear at all!
Don't know the full story on how you two got together. ...
Your life is and self worth is more valuable than some relationship and you don't need to be in a relationship to justify your existence!
*hugs* i hope that this hurt you're going through will pass soon and you'll find someone truely speacial, that'll be all for you!

Thanks buddy bear. I've sort of run out of tears at the moment. I don't know what's going to happen but I'll try. *Hugs back*

please Don't cry anymore. ... you're going to keep living and being my friend!

*Dries my tears for you* Thanks bro bear

I cant speak about an relationship. Sadly I never had a meaningful one. BUT to commit suicide over a breakup is NOT the right thing to do. It may hurt, it may REALLY hurt, but ending your life over is is wrong .There is almost never a good good reason to take ones own life. A breakup of an relationship is not a reason. Purge your FA account, stop any of the commissions you may have out, but please don't end your life over it

Thank you for your concern. It hurts my heart so much, I just don't know what I'm going to do.

NOO!! dont end your life!! i been down tha road its not the answer...
relationships can hurt but its never the answer to try to end things...
lil Tyrone is right self worth is more valuable and some relationship and so is your life. life is what you make it and you dont need to be in a relationship to have existence..

hang in there man, youll get through it.. life is to precious..
*HUGS* you

Thanks buddy. It hurts so much, but I am trying. I hope to make it.

i know it hurts but your tough and i know you'll make it..
lots of us go through things we think we cant make through but we all find a way...
you got friends and others who care. no one wants to see someone hurting..
you'll make it through.. *hugs*

Thanks. This helps a lot. I hope to recover soon. *Hugs you back*

I cannot really relate to you, sadly, since I have never had a relationship of any kind.
I can say though that these thoughts you have written will lose their meaning in a few days or weeks.
Recovery can be hard, and I suggest doing something that forces you to remember him, but doesn't cause any kind of great emotional bursts. That will speed up the recovery, since you will understand how little it will affect your personal life after that.

Sorry, if I seem really dark here, I am a cold person and as I said, no relationship experience.

That's alright. I totally understand the advice you're giving me. And I am attempting all the ideas everyone is giving me. It has helped me a lot. Thank you so much.

I am pretty sure that these kind of things cause an "autopilot" kind of feeling. Try to maintain it, since it will protect your psyche.

I can not explain well in English because I'm not very good at it (Using google translater ʕ>ᴥ<ʔ) But I want to say a few things

FIRST: Suicide is for cowards. You have to enjoy the good things, because there are always bad things then. We choose the importance we give to things.

Object lesson: Less Rammus (<- Bad guy), more FRIENDS, more FAMILY, more FOOD ʕ^ᴥ^ʔ, more whatever you like a lot!!

I thing people can make happy moment, just they have to want to do.

SECOND: Having a partner is secondary. Definitely have a partner produces more problems than it solves. I think a person must have a partner when he is happy with himself and want to complicate his life.

Object lesson: You're not happy with yourself? We have much work to do! ʕòᴥóʔ/ You need more of yourself

NOTE: Remember that: If a couple does not work, it is the fault of both.

THIRD: If you do not like something about you, change it! I'm not very handsome (Bear are cute! ʕ>ᴥ<ʔ/), but there are lots of things you can do to improve. Any activity that does not want to do more? Any activity you want to start? You want to improve something in dealing with others? Watch, learn and correct!! You are the engine of your life!!

Object lesson: There are millions of cells working for you, be happy and give them back the favor!

Coso send you (whatever you are) a big bear hug!! If you need somebody to talk, send me a message.

And remember: You choose the importance of the situations. Teach situations who's boss.

Hugs! (again \ʕ>ᴥ<ʔ/)

Coso

*Hugs you back* Thanks buddy bear. I understand what you mean. Very good ideas. I will try them and will try to recover from this painful loss. I hope my heart will heal. ^.^

I'm making attempts at recovering. I think if I can wait it out, I might recover. Thanks for the comment. It means so much.

Yo, I don't use furaffinity much because of reasons, but I'm Krys' mate and I honestly was purely shocked to hear this even though we were never formally introduced. We're both torn up over this and offer our sincerest condolences as you know and if you ever want to get to know me just let Krys know and he'll set something up, but take it from a guy who has been through more than a handful of breakups with people he truly loved, the pain goes deep, but you go deeper. Give it time and you'll be back to your normal self, even if there are chips or scars, you can pull through. Prayers and love to ya.

Thanks. I really could use some more friends to help get me through this dark time. I'm so lonely right now and I'm lacking in friends. Any and all help is very welcome. I would like to be able to speak with you if you'd be willing. I'd like to know how you managed and how you recovered and were able to make it together with Krys. I'm so happy you two found each other and how happy you've made my fox brother.

You cannot keep telling yourselves these things, these lies. Believe me when I say that you are NOT a nobody, and you are NOT a loser, you are NOT ugly, you are NOT worthless. I was lucky to have a single conversation with you and discover your art. I was happy to know a great person like you existed.

Thank you so much. I can try to believe these things but so far I still think these things about myself. I just hope to one day be shown that I'm not these things and believe them. Thanks for your lovely comment and support.

I'm happy to have known you. Bear or otherwise.

Don't say things like that. Nobody's worthless. These kinds of things happen to everyone, and it's our job to overcome those bad feelings. I know you can do that, just give it time. :)

Thanks. I truly wish I could believe that, but as things seem to go, I can't seem to help but see myself that way. I hope I one day find that I don't have to think these things about myself anymore. Thanks for the nice comment and support.

Oh my god, im so sorry to hear that dear :/ but please, dont ever think about killing yourself. everyone of us makes losses sometimes youre not alone with that, and think about all of your friends that likes and loves you like i do c: i will write definitely to you over skype, i guess its better talking about something like that over pm

Thank you so much love. I am trying to not hurt myself. I hope I will be better soon. I'm glad I have wonderful friends like you. :'3

"I can understand what you feel like"
This is something you'll probably hear a lot around here.
The thing is I went through similar things. First, I lived with the constant feeling of killing myself for almost ten years. Consider this : it won't change anything, because -even if you don't think so- you'll cause around you as much pain as you feel now. Can sound like a poor argument, but if for now you don't have in you reasons to go on, find them in others, at least in people you don't want to see suffering. I won't say that it'll solve itself : after all this years, I still have some remains of those times spent hating myself. It's long and no simple, but you'll see that you can find little things, little moments that are lightening the pain and making everything brighter. You feel worthless etc ? Just a remark then : all those persons (including me), who sometimes don't know you think you're important enough to spend some of there time writing you a comment. You just matter.
Coming to the end of love part... I must admit I hesitated to comment. What you went through... it just brings me back a few years backward. I met another French guy here, working on the same translations as me. We chatted a lot, endlessly during two weeks and at the end, declared our mutual loved. I was 21 and in love for the very first time ; but more important, I felt loved for the very first time. Or so I thought so. We were both lost, filled with pain and need for love. We met thrice in eight months. Each time, the incompatibility of our relation became more obvious. So a few weeks after our last meeting, we ended everything. I asked him so he told me that he never really were in love, that he thought it would come after. I knew it was nobody's fault, or actually both of us'. Splitting up this was literally broke something in me. It setted up ideas I was starting to forget. I went straight from "maybe I'm not that ugly, worthless and a failure ; maybe I can too be loved" to "I'll be alone and single forever". I spent weeks on autopilot, being half-sick. It was so painful it didn't felt like pain. Just emptiness, a great big nothing swallowing everything else. Again, I feel like I'm still recovering from it. But anyway I learnt something :
There is no fate, destiny, call it the way you want. There is always something to learn, wisdom to gain. You have to train your mind to see it in harsh times like that, this is true, but it's how it works. Holding pain, not feeling pain is an illusion, a dangerous thing even. Pain actually means it can be cured. So if you feel bad, try to centre yourself on the little things that make you happy, more at peace (for me it was photography : noticing little details, enjoying getting slow and taking time). Then, if you still have the will to end your life, you must find the persons/associations/organizations that are here for you, to help you. You worth it, life worth it too. After all, with all the humans (and anthro ^^) around, you really think only one guy would walk some time with you ? Naaaah !
Take care of yourself and good luck.

Thank you so much. Your comment was very good. I feel that you truly understand how it feels because I'm feeling the same. I'm currently at a point where I can't cry anymore, I just feel blank as if I've shut something off inside of me. I don't know how long this feeling will last but at the moment it's keeping me together at least. Not sad, not happy, just on auto-pilot. I feel the pain in my chest and I've lost the desire to eat in 2 days, but my brain has shut off my emotion to keep me sane.

I don't really feel like giving advice, but I'll say this anyway :
First I'm really pleased that my comment meant something to you :)
Then, I would only say go on, try to keep you safe, take care of yourself even if it's the auto-pilot.
I think things will slowly settle down and a new you will come out of this. So just go on and take great care of yourself !

Thanks so much TT2. I'm in so much pain right now. It helps to have friends.

I may just be a face in the crowd of watchers, but I do have a heart if there's anything I can do to help I'm here for you. This is a community after all :)

Thank you so much. I never imagined I'd get this much response from strangers. I'm very happy that this community is quite open hearted to each other. You've really surprised me and made me smile. Thank you so much. :'3

You're more then welcome! Putting a smile on someones face is often the best kind of help :3

Yo dude, Spectrum was telling me about your birthday. But ya know what man? You got friends and family that cares about you! I once had a great relationship until we broke up, but all I need to fill the void in my heart is my friends. Stay strong!

Thanks. I'm glad Spectrum cares so much about me and sends friends to help. I really appreciate your concern. I'm curious, is this Lilzero?

You're welcome! And correct! How did you know?

When you mentioned Spectrum and your fursona looked so familiar. It's good to see you again bud. *Hugs*

You got a good guess! Good to see ya too! :P *Hugs back*

While I don't know much about you guys, I obviously see and would know how much this would drain and hurt you. But if you'd like a fresh face to talk to for any reason, my notes are open to you. *hugs*

Thanks. I really appreciate it. *Hugs back*

*hugs tight*

*Hugs back*

*continues hug*

I'm sorry to hear of this Truttle, Get well and I speak to you soon cub.

Thanks big bear. It hurts so much.

I'm... right here. Sorry for finishing the commission just now, it'd be bittersweet anyways, you don't have to look at it.
(But when you find someone new who makes you feel just as wonderful again, I can always remake the image with them. I'll keep it as a badge of hope for you.)

But seriously, you have so much to live for (I've been down this road too often) and I'm right here ready to help. Feel well soon.
*hugs*

Thank you hun. It's alright, it's not your fault. I do hope to find that special bear who will love me like I would love them. Until then I will try to do my best to recover and return to who I used to be.

Thanks so much for your kind words. *Hugs you back*

Look I don't know much about relationships. but just because one ended poorly doesn't mean you should kill yourself. Look if you need anything at all, just call me.

Thanks. I'm trying my best.

Well if you ever need a rousing speech, just let me know whether or not you want me to refer to you as a bear or a human.

Im happy to be your mate screw remus for ever toying with you like that i know we cant ubderstanf how we will feel about a person when the idea of them is shattered but to do it on a peraons birthday is sick and well plain evil i love you deeply i may not always be the best at showing it but i wanted to leave this here for you im not a great person at the start of things however i will never hurt someone on their birthday its wrong. Im glad you have so many peoole who are there for you and i love you trutt butt always will.