I've been writing down my feelings a lot more lately and it has been good therapy. I am going to tell my parents today I am looking for new employment. They want me to stay around within driving distance, but I am afraid the rose is off the bloom.

Here for a while I was thinking that it would be a travesty to leave right after they retired. Yes, older people do have some difficulty doing things, but my parents aren't that feeble. To be honest Minneapolis is still somewhat within driving distance, but it is a distance that prompts people from far away to think twice about visiting because it is a long drive. Each new weekend is bringing some other reason to get the hell out of where I live.

And then every time I go back to my parents, something new comes up that irritates the everloving shit out of me. During my days as a college student it was a pleasant retreat. I could come home, do homework and laundry, get some good food, and then head back refreshed for the new week. Slowly over time, its become more of a...prison perhaps? Things happen in a certain way at a certain time in a certain fashion. It is like the whole place has gone completely stepford. You start to realize its hard to breathe, hard to think. The silence in between everything grips you. Not to mention there are business things I could be doing rather than being trapped in this temporary holding cell.

Let us say for now no matter what the outcome of my job search is, at least until January, no vacations or trips. If I do get a job by December -- and this is a big if, mind you -- MFF will be a remote possibility. I suppose this search could take through the end of the year, but I would rather hope it does not. I am tentatively planning for Furry Fiesta next year. TENTATIVELY.

So there you have it folks. I already have one interview lined up for this week, but I'm going to apply for more jobs when I get home. Have to work on suit stuff after that. This job stuff may impact the speed at which I get suit stuff done, so please everyone bare with me. Once I have a new life in place there should not be so many things distracting me.