Various factors have accumulated to make me horribly depressed. I feel like I have few friends. It's looking more and more likely that I'll have to return to the CCC, despite ramifications on my mental health. My dad's latest plans to get on Youtube and market his CD (and other things) kind of hinge on me being here... we'll see what happens when I file for unemployment... finally. I should have done it months ago. I guess living on my tax return made me lazy. I decided to be very stupid and lose money at the local Indian casino recently. Did well on the slots... then lost 60 bucks at the blackjack table. I have horrid luck with table games. The root of it was because I couldn't get a hold of a friend when we were slated to hang out, I guess. This past week has made me feel very alone. I started painting my Tau, at least. I think I did pretty well for my first 40k model ever. I'll have to upload a pic... have to upload FC pics too. Been kind hard to get the computer for a decent chunk of time lately, due to my dad researching blogging and such. He's going to be a net-millionare and all that.

Does anyone actually read this shit?

Had a gig on April 4th. Lots of songs to upload... including the rest of my dad's album. Gig went fairly well, I guess, just disappointed in my guitar work. Thought I had everything pretty well-practiced, but nerves kicked in in front of an audience. Nothing I haven't experienced before. I'd like to take the songs we did out of this city. People tell me I have a great voice, but I don't seem to be using it enough.

God damn... money is a bitch.