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19 years ago
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Since I came to furaffinity, there have been a few standards I've been keeping to in my account activity. I've been trying to make sure that I don't watch any more people than are watching me, for instance. But perhaps one of the most obvious tendencies I have is visible in my Favorites.
Earlier on, I was especially ESPECIALLY intrigued by sketch work. But more recently, you may have noticed a different twist, a different running similarity. Sentimental artwork is suddenly climbing to the top of my preference, and I just noticed.
No, it probably isn't important, but it makes me think alright.
I'll be the first to admit that I'm not perfect. I'll be the first to admit that I do things that other people consider a little less than perfectly clean and g-rated. But no matter how humble I'll get, I'll NEVER be the first to admit my gazings at porn, even furry porn :p because there are FAR more furverts out there that are exponentially more raunchy than I am. Still, it came as a surprise to me that, just as I'd said months ago, I get a better, stronger, purer feeling out of love art than I do out of lust art.
Touchmybadger just drew the most adorable picture (again) of herself and her mate, this one portraying them preparing for their wedding. The picture, if you can even imagine it, was... absolutely filled, saturated, drenched with every drop of breathless heart-pounding anticipiation and hope that you could possibly cram into such a moment. It was so moving I could hardly breathe, heart in my throat, eyes tearing, butterflies in my stomach, I could swear it was like being there.
There isn't anything but love that can make that kind of reaction. None of my characters have ever implanted such an intensity into me. It's almost enough for me to boot up my old connection to JudeoChristian God just to see if he'd answer a prayer: that Badger and Brown Wolf have a life ahead of them exactly as they hope and pray for it. I want to invest all the faith and hope I have left in this wretched spinning dirtclod called earth on the one, perhaps foolish, possibility that THEY, at least THEY can be deliriously happy.
Somebody has to be that happy... somebody, somewhere. I just want to be sure that that kind of happiness can exist. If I can just be sure of that, the world truly will seem not nearly so bleak as it had to me in the past ever again. If that kind of love can exist, maybe, just maybe, humanity and civilization aren't -so- bad... Maybe I don't need to be so bitter or wear such a smartassed mask. Maybe I don't have to pretend I'm so jaded and cynical.
I'm sorry for talking about you like this, Ms. Badger, but +watching you has started to change my life even if in the most obscure (though hardly miniscule!) ways. I've actually learned a lot about myself and love, even if all that's done is help me realize to an even fuller extent just how little I really understand at all x.x it's the journey that counts; and the hills haven't seemed as steep, the trails as rough, the roads as winding, as I've watched from FA's vantage.
And some of you, i'm positive, will think this is cheesey. that this is corny.
I don't care. Things become cliche for a reason, and often not because they're false, but because they're TRUE.
well I'm gonna try and wrap this up. it's late.
Just... I wish TouchMyBadger the best of luck and the highest of hopes, and just maybe the_brown_wolf will get up the guts to propose.
Earlier on, I was especially ESPECIALLY intrigued by sketch work. But more recently, you may have noticed a different twist, a different running similarity. Sentimental artwork is suddenly climbing to the top of my preference, and I just noticed.
No, it probably isn't important, but it makes me think alright.
I'll be the first to admit that I'm not perfect. I'll be the first to admit that I do things that other people consider a little less than perfectly clean and g-rated. But no matter how humble I'll get, I'll NEVER be the first to admit my gazings at porn, even furry porn :p because there are FAR more furverts out there that are exponentially more raunchy than I am. Still, it came as a surprise to me that, just as I'd said months ago, I get a better, stronger, purer feeling out of love art than I do out of lust art.
Touchmybadger just drew the most adorable picture (again) of herself and her mate, this one portraying them preparing for their wedding. The picture, if you can even imagine it, was... absolutely filled, saturated, drenched with every drop of breathless heart-pounding anticipiation and hope that you could possibly cram into such a moment. It was so moving I could hardly breathe, heart in my throat, eyes tearing, butterflies in my stomach, I could swear it was like being there.
There isn't anything but love that can make that kind of reaction. None of my characters have ever implanted such an intensity into me. It's almost enough for me to boot up my old connection to JudeoChristian God just to see if he'd answer a prayer: that Badger and Brown Wolf have a life ahead of them exactly as they hope and pray for it. I want to invest all the faith and hope I have left in this wretched spinning dirtclod called earth on the one, perhaps foolish, possibility that THEY, at least THEY can be deliriously happy.
Somebody has to be that happy... somebody, somewhere. I just want to be sure that that kind of happiness can exist. If I can just be sure of that, the world truly will seem not nearly so bleak as it had to me in the past ever again. If that kind of love can exist, maybe, just maybe, humanity and civilization aren't -so- bad... Maybe I don't need to be so bitter or wear such a smartassed mask. Maybe I don't have to pretend I'm so jaded and cynical.
I'm sorry for talking about you like this, Ms. Badger, but +watching you has started to change my life even if in the most obscure (though hardly miniscule!) ways. I've actually learned a lot about myself and love, even if all that's done is help me realize to an even fuller extent just how little I really understand at all x.x it's the journey that counts; and the hills haven't seemed as steep, the trails as rough, the roads as winding, as I've watched from FA's vantage.
And some of you, i'm positive, will think this is cheesey. that this is corny.
I don't care. Things become cliche for a reason, and often not because they're false, but because they're TRUE.
well I'm gonna try and wrap this up. it's late.
Just... I wish TouchMyBadger the best of luck and the highest of hopes, and just maybe the_brown_wolf will get up the guts to propose.
I also watch some people for unpron.
In the end, I like art regardless if it's pron or not.