Hey

I don't know who reads these things but for what its worth I guess I got to get some shit off my chest. It's come to my attention that quite a few people I've come to like have grievances with me, whether deserved or undeserved. I'm not here to throw shade or whatever, but I just want to say I understand. I can be quite brash at times and that can be offputting, and I've apparently come off as self centered. I guess for those this applies to, I'm sorry, and for anyone who actually has issues with me, I would more than welcome the chance to discuss them with me. When I get the chones I might approach people near to me but still. Odds are if we share close friends I probably already know, so no need to hide it from me anymore.

In other news, sorry for being lame. Me and  zipperfiend have went separate ways, and I have really not been in the right frame of mind recently. I'd like to say I'm better but I'm not. I can't help but feel like dead-weight to people I care about, and I am frankly scared how weak my connections are to a lot of people, and whether they hold any reciprocal respect or if its me over-trusting people. Honestly, I am brash and open with my feelings, but I see that as a boon. I don't lie or keep my opinions secret. Maybe wishing for the same from people is just a fantasy.

I'll try to do my best to get better and all that, but I have a feeling it will be a long time till I am whole again.