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10 years ago
Moar Friends!
This month hasn't been easy.
First off, to everyone who previously watched my
NoodlePanda account, welcome to the original FlareLeon account, where more focus is put on my once again main sona, Leon Embers the fox. There's an updated bio coming out for him, so for those interested, keep an eye out.
Second, I visited Mari, my girlfriend of 2 and a half years, for the first time last month, and I really thought we hit it off. We kissed, we cuddled, and even tried to make love a few times before her parents stopped us. It was my first trip on my own, and it took away a lot of the fears I had about immigration and airport security. Sadly, it wasn't meant to be. On Wednesday, September 9th, 2014, after we'd had a fight that ended in awkward silence the previous night, I was dumped. It was the cleanest breakup I've ever experienced, but it was a breakup nonetheless. Not a break, not time to think, she truly thought we weren't meant for each other. And after some thinking, I realized I agreed with her. We had differing views on a lot of things, and I tried to make it work despite that. If we can be friends some day, that'd be great, because I think we can get along.
Thirdly, I lost two friends lately. No names will be mentioned. One is my first meaningful ex, who still remains friends with the succubus who tainted my heart years ago, and sees no issue in lumping me in with facebook posts involving her. I could live with that, though, we never really talked anymore. I also lost a good friend I met on here, a fellow voice acting enthusiast. He was always quiet and distant, never really opening up when he was down and I wanted to know what was wrong. I had dealt with similar people before and thought that giving him space and letting him come to me was a good option. He never did. Not only that, he took extreme offense to this and stopped considering me his friend after months had passed. I spent a tearful hour, at work, in the bathroom (therefore risking my job) trying to apologize, to make amends, to own up to everything I'd done, and none of it really phased either of them. A few days later, we tried to conclude the disussion and he agreed to try to talk after I gave him some space.
I did, and after about a week I tried to check in through his girlfriend, whom I met during our call the other night. I tried to befriend her and at the same time find out if he'd been feeling any better. In my min, this seemed worth a shot, even if at first we hadn't gotten along too well. She was extremely skeptic, asking me question after question, doubting I actually wanted to be friends. I realized afterwards this was a bad move, but too late. My offer to be friends came off as a sleazy way to try and get him to see my good side, and I knew everything was gone to hell. I decided to cut my losses and back away from both of them, apologizing one last time and wishing them the best. They responded only with spite and contempt.
To my friend I lost: I'm sorry I messed up. You deserved better, and if I'd known you really needed help and support, I would have been there. Unfortunately, you stayed as quiet as I did all those months. I have my own friends who value my friendship. I value theirs. Maybe our personalities didn't mesh well enough for us to work out as proper friends. Wish me good riddance, laugh at me and say hateful things behind my back, if it helps you feel better about this. I just want you to be happy with the one you love and have friends who are loyal to you and understand you better than I did. It was never my intention to hurt you. Please, take care.
Lastly, I've been dealing with a sore throat for days. I have dry cough, runny nose, and a few days ago it was a bad headache with nausea, which cleared up pretty fast. It's gotten to a point where I had to call in sick so I could go to a free clinic, which I'm off to do tomorrow morning. My throat is sore and I've lost my voice, meaning I can't work until this starts to get better, because I need to speak to customers at work and if they can't hear me over the lights, the register computer and the slushie machines, I'm not going to be effective at my job. The worst part is I can't even sing along to Scmoyòho videos anymore. >~<
That's all for now.
Schmoyòho, accent on the yò~
Thanks for readin' my newest journal~
Schmoyòho, accent on the yò~
Have a great one, feel free to comment on this below~
Below, below~
Comment below~
First off, to everyone who previously watched my
NoodlePanda account, welcome to the original FlareLeon account, where more focus is put on my once again main sona, Leon Embers the fox. There's an updated bio coming out for him, so for those interested, keep an eye out.Second, I visited Mari, my girlfriend of 2 and a half years, for the first time last month, and I really thought we hit it off. We kissed, we cuddled, and even tried to make love a few times before her parents stopped us. It was my first trip on my own, and it took away a lot of the fears I had about immigration and airport security. Sadly, it wasn't meant to be. On Wednesday, September 9th, 2014, after we'd had a fight that ended in awkward silence the previous night, I was dumped. It was the cleanest breakup I've ever experienced, but it was a breakup nonetheless. Not a break, not time to think, she truly thought we weren't meant for each other. And after some thinking, I realized I agreed with her. We had differing views on a lot of things, and I tried to make it work despite that. If we can be friends some day, that'd be great, because I think we can get along.
Thirdly, I lost two friends lately. No names will be mentioned. One is my first meaningful ex, who still remains friends with the succubus who tainted my heart years ago, and sees no issue in lumping me in with facebook posts involving her. I could live with that, though, we never really talked anymore. I also lost a good friend I met on here, a fellow voice acting enthusiast. He was always quiet and distant, never really opening up when he was down and I wanted to know what was wrong. I had dealt with similar people before and thought that giving him space and letting him come to me was a good option. He never did. Not only that, he took extreme offense to this and stopped considering me his friend after months had passed. I spent a tearful hour, at work, in the bathroom (therefore risking my job) trying to apologize, to make amends, to own up to everything I'd done, and none of it really phased either of them. A few days later, we tried to conclude the disussion and he agreed to try to talk after I gave him some space.
I did, and after about a week I tried to check in through his girlfriend, whom I met during our call the other night. I tried to befriend her and at the same time find out if he'd been feeling any better. In my min, this seemed worth a shot, even if at first we hadn't gotten along too well. She was extremely skeptic, asking me question after question, doubting I actually wanted to be friends. I realized afterwards this was a bad move, but too late. My offer to be friends came off as a sleazy way to try and get him to see my good side, and I knew everything was gone to hell. I decided to cut my losses and back away from both of them, apologizing one last time and wishing them the best. They responded only with spite and contempt.
To my friend I lost: I'm sorry I messed up. You deserved better, and if I'd known you really needed help and support, I would have been there. Unfortunately, you stayed as quiet as I did all those months. I have my own friends who value my friendship. I value theirs. Maybe our personalities didn't mesh well enough for us to work out as proper friends. Wish me good riddance, laugh at me and say hateful things behind my back, if it helps you feel better about this. I just want you to be happy with the one you love and have friends who are loyal to you and understand you better than I did. It was never my intention to hurt you. Please, take care.
Lastly, I've been dealing with a sore throat for days. I have dry cough, runny nose, and a few days ago it was a bad headache with nausea, which cleared up pretty fast. It's gotten to a point where I had to call in sick so I could go to a free clinic, which I'm off to do tomorrow morning. My throat is sore and I've lost my voice, meaning I can't work until this starts to get better, because I need to speak to customers at work and if they can't hear me over the lights, the register computer and the slushie machines, I'm not going to be effective at my job. The worst part is I can't even sing along to Scmoyòho videos anymore. >~<
That's all for now.
Schmoyòho, accent on the yò~
Thanks for readin' my newest journal~
Schmoyòho, accent on the yò~
Have a great one, feel free to comment on this below~
Below, below~
Comment below~
I do want you to know that I value your friendship more than any other friendship I have on FA though. You're one of two people who I will always consider the best of my best friends. No matter what some other person may say about you, you're an excellent friend, and I hope to always be seen as your best friend as well.
To Leon, I say stay strong, brush it off, and have a Snickers *Tosses candy bar at him....hits him in the forehead by accident* O_O.....
But yeah, at least it is good to hear both you and Mari resolved it in a mature manner. I always like Mari's calm and clean way of thinking. She will go far in life with that type of personality. Good luck to her in her love life, and everyday life, just as I wish the same to you.
On another note, here's some comic relief...
[Insert me doing something crazy funny because I'm an idiot]
Thanks, Dark. ^_^ I miss you.