thoughts that cycle
10 years ago
General
"You have the right to free speech"...
i'm gonna be 25 years old soon. have i seriously lived to a quarter of a century? what the fuck do i even do about that? should i not be weirded out by that? i probably shouldnt, but i am.
i was born right before my dad turned 25. not pumping out any kids any time soon, personally. it all brings to mind a lot of questions, but most of them are moronic music questions like, when i'm 50, are teens gonna be all, "ugh, not this song again!" when "take me out" plays on the oldies station?
i've found that my folks have a lot of the "80s kid stereotypes" going for them. they used to take big two-to-three-week vacations to hawaii when i was in high school, and when they were getting ready to leave, theyd fill us with rules like "dont get into my stash" and "dont have too many strippers over at once" and "keep house parties quiet so you dont annoy the neighbors". im pretty sure they were joking, but at the same time, it spoke a volume or two about the generational gap between Us and Them when they finished the rundown of rules and left, only for my brother and i to go, "hey lets cook some dinner and play halo! this is gonna be so fun!"
so i have to wonder what tired old stereotypes are going to be left for 50-year-old me. 25 years from now, 25-year-olds are going to look at me and be all, "ooh, she thinks shes all ironic and clever, what a fuckin zeroes kid. oh, shit, i'm overanalyzing. I'VE BECOME ONE OF THEM." or i might be completely misinterpreting my entire generation. all i know is what i see.
no, this is all dumb, though, i know that. but i guess it just ages me mentally when i sip my coffee in my actually-really-nice office at my legitimate workplace and realize that im about to hit a milestone on my calendar. it makes me wonder if im the same person i was ten years ago when i awkwardly shuffled through my high school in, like, four wristbands, a denim jacket, and some snarky t-shirt, swearing up one wall and down the other that i'd never be able to stand myself if i got a Desk Job. did 80s kids wonder stuff like this 25 years ago?
anyway, i think im going to end that one there. have you read this far? i have no idea why you did, if so. i hope you werent expecting anything. <3
i was born right before my dad turned 25. not pumping out any kids any time soon, personally. it all brings to mind a lot of questions, but most of them are moronic music questions like, when i'm 50, are teens gonna be all, "ugh, not this song again!" when "take me out" plays on the oldies station?
i've found that my folks have a lot of the "80s kid stereotypes" going for them. they used to take big two-to-three-week vacations to hawaii when i was in high school, and when they were getting ready to leave, theyd fill us with rules like "dont get into my stash" and "dont have too many strippers over at once" and "keep house parties quiet so you dont annoy the neighbors". im pretty sure they were joking, but at the same time, it spoke a volume or two about the generational gap between Us and Them when they finished the rundown of rules and left, only for my brother and i to go, "hey lets cook some dinner and play halo! this is gonna be so fun!"
so i have to wonder what tired old stereotypes are going to be left for 50-year-old me. 25 years from now, 25-year-olds are going to look at me and be all, "ooh, she thinks shes all ironic and clever, what a fuckin zeroes kid. oh, shit, i'm overanalyzing. I'VE BECOME ONE OF THEM." or i might be completely misinterpreting my entire generation. all i know is what i see.
no, this is all dumb, though, i know that. but i guess it just ages me mentally when i sip my coffee in my actually-really-nice office at my legitimate workplace and realize that im about to hit a milestone on my calendar. it makes me wonder if im the same person i was ten years ago when i awkwardly shuffled through my high school in, like, four wristbands, a denim jacket, and some snarky t-shirt, swearing up one wall and down the other that i'd never be able to stand myself if i got a Desk Job. did 80s kids wonder stuff like this 25 years ago?
anyway, i think im going to end that one there. have you read this far? i have no idea why you did, if so. i hope you werent expecting anything. <3
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Now lookit us.
You're MARRIED.
I'm ENGAGED.
Were like, actual PEOPLE.
I can't say "I need an adult".
I AM THE ADULT.
i still say "i need an adult." sometimes, when i go to use my coffee maker in the morning, and i see the "sharp needles" warning that recommends having an adult handle the machine, i get legitimately nervous for just a split second.
I can't wait till were like 80 years old in our rockers telling our grandkids
"WHEN YOUR GRANDPAPPY WAS A YOUNGIN HE HAD A SERIOUS ISSUE WITH CAFFEINE. AN ERRDAY IN THE CAFERTERIERR I HAD TA PRY HIM AWAY FROM THE COFFEEH."