Okay, I know I had things all figured out and a plan for finishing everything. Life had to interrupt in some of the most scary fashions I've experienced.

My mom's seizures have suddenly worsened. To the point she was and still is on partial bed rest. I have been doing house and farm work and over seeing my siblings. I haven't had nearly as much time at the computer. I'm feeling crushed by stress and I feel like I'm failing my mom and siblings because one is failing history horribly and the other English. So I've tried helping to tutor them more the past few days.

Not to mention a horrible person from my family's past hurt my sister this past weekend after having been so good to her over the years. I had hoped he would never emotionally or mentally hurt her like he did my mom and myself, but he proved that some people don't change.

I've also been harassed on kik by friends of an ex that apparently ended up in jail and since I MUST be why (haven't talked to him in nearly a year) they kept making accounts to harass me to get around being blocked. Kik admins must have finally blocked the numbers or devices because it finally stopped. But I apologize to anyone I've lost contact with on kik. I just couldn't deal with my phone blowing up.

And I just got a call that my dad is being sent to the hospital with chest pains and numbness in his arms and his EKG doesn't look good but no one will tell me why or how. I'm seriously about to break as I type this from my phone. I'm tired and I'm afraid that my dad is in deep trouble.

I'm not looking for pity or anything. I'm just updating on my life. I feel like I keep handing you guys excuses. I'm tired of it. I just want a nontorrential life where I can do what I plan and when I plan. A life with healthy parents and siblings.

I'm terribly sorry for everything. I apologize to you watchers. I apologize to my commissioners. I apologize to everyone my absence and delayed work has effected.