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sorry for my mood lately
10 years ago
I know life is rarely kind and going well for anyone but my life is kinda mammoth these days so I just wanted to apologize for all the grumpiness and sadness I've been radiating. I am trying to get professional help but I've been bogged down with a lot of red tape. And unprofessional doctors simply pushing me out thr door treating me like a number rather than a patient.
My medicine is being experimented with so that's another issue that contributes to it all. Along with the side effects so i sleep a lot therefore I'm seen as lazy. But i don't get a lot done. And when i do get something done it's just in time for my father to get home and he's in a bad mood and tskes it out on mr and just not fun.
I know it's all rather plain and domestic stuff.....but my brain wants me to kill myself constantly anf that's not fun.
So thank you all for your patience and understanding. I want to make it clear. I am trying to recover. Just frustrate at the pace it's taking. And how powerless i feel about it.
My medicine is being experimented with so that's another issue that contributes to it all. Along with the side effects so i sleep a lot therefore I'm seen as lazy. But i don't get a lot done. And when i do get something done it's just in time for my father to get home and he's in a bad mood and tskes it out on mr and just not fun.
I know it's all rather plain and domestic stuff.....but my brain wants me to kill myself constantly anf that's not fun.
So thank you all for your patience and understanding. I want to make it clear. I am trying to recover. Just frustrate at the pace it's taking. And how powerless i feel about it.
Whenever you need to vent and whenever you need to talk, I am always available here but also I am available on Skype. I don't want to lose you as you are very important to me as a very close friend.
I know its very tough but in the long run it'll be very worth it and you'll be very happy. Before you hurt yourself, try to think about those who care for you and how much they want to help you. Plus, we'll hate to see/hear that you are hurt and we want you to be very happy.
I love you as a very dear friend and I would hate to see you gone.
All this does sound unfortunate and I sympathize with you, I do hope you get a doctor that will help with what you need and with your medicine too. And sadly, a lot of parents are like that. My step dad has been like that a lot lately where anything he doesn't like sets him off and its taken out on others
And...um... all your friends love you and im sure they all hate to see you like this
but then im sure they're all patient and don't mind you being a bit grumpy because they understand how you must feel
so...hope you feel better applefiend *hug and pats*
Things will get better. You will get better. You just have to give yourself some time.
And I cannot stress this enough, but please don't hurt yourself. Things can't get better if you're gone. And hurting yourself physically won't do anything anything except being hurtful. I almost lost a friend a few years back, and none of this is a solution.
On a somewhat different subject, I'm sorry I had to stop being a patron. My bank account was running a bit short so I had to cut off on some expenses. Though now it's getting back up, so when I've put a bit more money together I will gladly start being a patron again ^-^
Hang in there, Apple! <3