Had you allowed me, this would have been another day to spoil you to the best of my abilities. I would have been looking for the perfect gift for a month before, ears and eyes wide open, paying attention to what you said so I could get you the present not even you knew you wanted.

I would have woken you up with kisses and anything else you wanted. I would have taken you out to dinner with all our friends here. I would have taken you back to bed with more kisses and more of anything else you wanted.

I wanted to spend the rest of my life doing this for you, and not just on your birthday. You know I'm good for it - I did it when we lived countries apart, when your life was miserable and lonely. I did when you moved here and was trying to build a new life for yourself.

But you made your choice, though I was never part of it. In spite of that, I still love you and I still wish you a happy birthday.