I don't even know what to type

I guess I feel like I'm not me anymore

Everything I draw feels less and less like it's worth drawing

My proudest pieces are the ones where I felt like I just got back to myself for a while. My work has always been disjointed yet I knew I was getting better, technically. I think I was just bottle-necking my own work into one thread because I thought it was what people wanted to see.

I was caring more about what people thought and less about what I wanted.

I dunno.

I've always been a pretty scattered person I guess.

I can never even decide how I want to look.

But does that matter?

...

I don't even know what point I'm trying to make here.

Ugh!