Recently I've been coming to terms with a lot in my life, and really starting to figure out what I truly think, feel, and believe. I've been completely solid on my feelings regarding my religious views, political, and other issues. However one thing that I've always struggled with has been my sexuality. I've rarely ever felt a true spark attraction irl, due to a lot of self-sexual repression brought about by my upbringing. All this led me to almost fully convince myself I was straight, even though I could never bring myself to act on those "desires", I often doubt myself if that was because of being scared of sexual activity because of my upbringing, or legitimate lack of desire to have sex with girls. Nowadays I think it's a bit of both. I roughly came to terms with my sexuality when I was 17 when I first joined FA. I had started using furry porn as an excuse to get off to male porn, without feeling like I was really gay. I guess in my mind at the time I felt that as long as it wasn't human males it didn't count. It seems so stupid, but looking back, I realize just how deep-rooted my repression has been. I finally snapped after my boyfriend dumped me and tried to convince myself I didn't really like guys, and at the time I really felt like I didn't. I've done a lot of maturing, including sexually since then, and finally worked up the nerve to start having sexual encounters with friends I trusted irl, both male and female, and came to be even more confused. Basically, this year I've come to realize I don't fit neatly into a perfect labeled box as "gay, "bi", or even "pansexual". While I feel the most satisfaction both emotionally and physically from men, I still enjoy physical engagement with girls, but don't feel that same emotional spark or attraction I do for guys. Pretty much what this means is that I've been struggling to have something more appropriate to tell friends when they ask why I favorited some female art for example, but still identify as gay, and my answer now is that I'm just homoflexible, I like this term best for myself. I know this all may seem out of the blue, but I wanted to actually type this all out and accept it. Thank you for reading this far if you did.