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Bit concerned
10 years ago
Sometimes I feel like all I do is whining.
Looking through the list of my recent journals to the right while I'm writing this here proves that I... barely whine. I must have a crooked self-image. °-°
Lately art has been very slow and I'm terribly sorry especially for the handful of people whom I promised something, whether it's a drawing or a story. (EDIT: Like, holy shit, the last proper drawing I uploaded has a signature of VII/15.) A large part of the reason for that is that work has become gradually more overwhelming and long, and during the few days where I get off work earlier I find myself buried in chores.
Autumn depression is gallopping towards me. Yay.
I sometimes feel terribly alone here in my own four walls, but even if someone were here with me, I wouldn't have much time for them. Mreeh. Thankfully my friends keep me at bay by talking with me and trying to paint smiles on my face. A big thankyou to you bunch. Love ya. <3
Another reason for the slowing in art is that I frustrate myself by seeing other people spew out drawing in sometimes astonishing speed, and I scribble around here with my pencils, needing days of work to produce something showable. And that frustartion leads me to not even pick up the pencil sometimes.
Finally, but that may be a consequence of the last part, I feel like I don't enjoy making art. It's more a chore, more something I need to do. I'm in the odd situation that I want to make art, but I don't like to do it.
It's probably a version of "I want results without putting the work in". Dammit. I never wanted to get there. °-°
Got any tips for breaking out a bit?
Thank you for listening.
This font is awful to read if the text is longer than a few sentences. *shakes fist*
In more positive news: Yaaaaay!
Looking through the list of my recent journals to the right while I'm writing this here proves that I... barely whine. I must have a crooked self-image. °-°
Lately art has been very slow and I'm terribly sorry especially for the handful of people whom I promised something, whether it's a drawing or a story. (EDIT: Like, holy shit, the last proper drawing I uploaded has a signature of VII/15.) A large part of the reason for that is that work has become gradually more overwhelming and long, and during the few days where I get off work earlier I find myself buried in chores.
Autumn depression is gallopping towards me. Yay.
I sometimes feel terribly alone here in my own four walls, but even if someone were here with me, I wouldn't have much time for them. Mreeh. Thankfully my friends keep me at bay by talking with me and trying to paint smiles on my face. A big thankyou to you bunch. Love ya. <3
Another reason for the slowing in art is that I frustrate myself by seeing other people spew out drawing in sometimes astonishing speed, and I scribble around here with my pencils, needing days of work to produce something showable. And that frustartion leads me to not even pick up the pencil sometimes.
Finally, but that may be a consequence of the last part, I feel like I don't enjoy making art. It's more a chore, more something I need to do. I'm in the odd situation that I want to make art, but I don't like to do it.
It's probably a version of "I want results without putting the work in". Dammit. I never wanted to get there. °-°
Got any tips for breaking out a bit?
Thank you for listening.
This font is awful to read if the text is longer than a few sentences. *shakes fist*
In more positive news: Yaaaaay!
"I want results without putting the work in. My life with languages and hence why I get frustrated and give up. It's like a necessary evil -w-
That aside, just try small little doodles maybe. Nothing to major like having a solid object or whatnot. Try doodling and see if that gives you inspiration to want to continue to art. Not to mention you are probably stressed(unconsciously) because work and chores and your willpower to do anything from tiring work and chores drains you.
That thought pattern is awful, isn't it? I think we have to remind ourselves to look back and see the progress we made instead of wanting to be perfect instantly. Baby steps. Patience.
I think I'll do some concept sketches. Those go fairly quickly and let me see which of my ideas are going to work and which need revamping. And some larger sketches. Sketching is one of my favourite parts in drawing, so I'm gonna focus on that more. Just need to find a way to make them better visible. <.<;
And yes, I'm stressed.
Also, I am always having a solid object~
Also >.> rude :p kidding. If you have tea, try drinking tea to calm you or buy some lavender oil when you can and take a hot/warm bath. It helps relax you
Also, I wish I had a bath tub. ;-;
Though I need to do background work, too. Hmm.
And I'll try to sketch more in general. Less focus on making a full-fledged drawing.
We're here for you if you need someone -hugs-
I'm a bit in that artist's dilemma with spacing out: Whenever I spend a lot of time on something that isn't drawing, I feel bad for not drawing. But I'll try to do some quick sketches here and there. Even if I can't show them.
Try not to compare yourself to others. Work with your own flow and way.
Plus draw what you enjoy drawing. ♥
Also... kick that autumn depression in the butt! (・∀・)
Just... remember you are awesome~!
I'll try not to compare myself. God, I have an 8-odd hour job and live on my own. What is spare time? X3 I need to organise my day a bit more, though.
And if I only draw what I enjoy, I'll end up with hundreds of drawings of butts. <.<; .. I still need to practice other things a bit now and then.
Buuut, I think it helps if I stop focusing on full drawing and only go for sketches now and then. Or just concept arts. Something more loose. (~ °-° )~
Depression butt-kickin' is on. I just hope the weather will be more stable. That's always the biggest culprit. <.<
And thank you, Mura. *-* You're awesome, too.
Those sound like nice ideas. Silly things, I think that's what it should be about when it comes to doodling.
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