Most of my friends on skype have maybe removed me, or went on elsewhere or even forgotten about me. Most would think i am asshole who just forgets to talk to people over the years.. So really, this is me coming out to say, i am sorry if i haven't talked to anyone lately the past year. My 10 year struggle with depression has finally caught up to me, where i am now stopped given a shit about my friends...

for those who know me allready who i've told this story to and blah blah blah, seaking help now maybe will get better, for those that don't know.

I am messed up in the head, thanks to my parents sence the age of 15 i was tought, sex= bad, being not of the church= bad, being gay/bi= bad. On top of the fact my childhood was filled with my father at times throwing me across the room from my copmputer beacuse i wasn't going to church, to yelling at me constanty due to the fact my friends online wernt real.

Yayy i am messed up, broken sex drive from then on, hypnosis helped some, thanks nexy, still miss ya.. Helped me find out i was a dom..but lately, my drive and will to do anything other but sit around and watch tv shows, or wonder around in NV has left some of my friends wondering whats going on. so for those who care, I am messed up, i am seaking help please for the love of god don't have pity, its been 10 years i've had this, I stoped giveing a shit about 85% about 2 years ago, and now thats gone to 95%

its nice not haveing to give a dam about alot of thigns, but when that starts effecting my sex drive, the only thing i used to do to help me feel happy.. THing are messed up with me, so thats whats going on, Feel free to jumpstart me anytime you want..

otter bun signing off.
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