I'm still working on commissions little by little, but nearly everyone in my household is under the weather and there's doctor's appointments galore. My mom's still having seizure/hormone issues, my step dad is having to get treatment for his out of control psoriasis when home, my sister was just diagnosed with a chronic pain disorder and going through physical therapy, and my step brother has been battling respiratory junk and an ulcer in his stomach. So, time has been tight.

Now here's the kicker: I may need to see my doctor too. She's not the best in the world and has completely ignored some deficiencies I have in previous blood work. But she's what I have for now. Last year my thyroid was checked because both hypo and hyper thyroidism run strongly in both sides of my family and I was starting to show minor signs. Well, with my sudden weight gain (15 lbs I'm ashamed to say) with no change in activity or diet, the rampant ringing in my ears not related to hearing loss, severe depression, heart palpitations that steal my breath, and all the other things worsening far from what they were last year (I had a slightly underactive thyroid "nothing to worry about yet") so now I'm worried that I'm going to have to undergo treatment for my thyroid and it really didn't look fun for my mom.

A lot of the family has such highly disfunctional thyroids that surgery or radiation was the only option and then medication to replace their thyroid for the rest of their life. That is really scary. I'm a coward, I'll admit. And it sounds awfully depressing.

I guess I just need a figurative kick in the butt to get me to make an appointment and go get it tested.