It's good to hear from you again. It might be difficult to arrange but perhaps you should see about therapy or at least talk to someone. Perhaps getting it off your chest or working things out might help? Losing someone is always hard but you can't just curl up and wait for your own life to end, you need to continue to live on.

I think therapy is the reason I didn't just up and, well... yeah. Still fully planning to just curl up and wait, but at least not as bad off while doing it as I was. I am very greatful for the concern though, especially since, well to be frank it often ends up being really difficlt to deal with unloading on people, even with therapy I fear I get very very very mopey and I hate subjecting others to it.

Also sorry for being quiet but, well, nothing to really say. Just keep seeking distraction and waiting.

That's what the therapist gets paid for, so unload! When honest people offer to try and help and let you unload or at least speak about the problems out loud we all do it because we want to help and we want to assist you so don't feel like it's a burden or that its a problem. There are people that want to help you and holding back isn't helping you so let it out. If you ever need to talk please feel free to send me a note or I'm on Facebook messenger on my phone and I always have that handy

I may poke you later, I am lucky to have you guys as friends. In the end I am just, well, trying hard to just keep on for now. I am going to keep it in mid, but at the moment I just ed up restig every day so I can shut out a tiny fraction of the pain and deal. That's how far I have come, and here i think I stay.

I almost always have my phone on me (except at work) so shoot me a message any time. I've gone through depression before and over sleeping is a sign to watch out for. It doesn't help you deal with anything it just makes it so you don't have to deal with it just now...which isn't always the best thing. I know that's not a great thing to hear but still

Yeah I know, but the fact is I'm trying not to deal, because there isn't really a way to deal. I am more able to put on an 'ok face' for others and function when I have to at least, but I also accepted a long time ago this isn't something I heal from. Frankly I knew if she ever died, I'd end up that way before.

Though I think I at least has your YIM so if I really need to I will pop off an IM.

Yea... this year has been a thing that has happened. Just remember, your friends are there. Yes, you feel alone, but you DO have friends. Might not feel like much right now, but is the difference between... well... everything.

Time will heal wounds. You will never forget her. Never. Not gonna happen. But it will wrap the pain in a layer of gauze until it isn't quite so gaping and bleeding a hole.

You just... go on. I don't have any sage words of wisdom, unfortunately. But I do offer one hope. You go on, and you eventually find your life again. No trick, no magic, it's just... inevitable. Time passes, wounds begin to heal, and life goes on.

Should you need anything, a shoulder to gnaw on perhaps or even just someone to vent at, I am at your service.

I don't know about heal. I think time gets you used to the wounds, but I don't see getting better, just going on i spite of it, until it ends me.

I do appreciate the offer and I may take you up on it. For now though, just need to sleep, and need to go on as I have. In the end, I am just here because I am here, but at least I am not as active in my hate of life, and I think that is about where I will settle.

I don't know you but mousies are the best so message me anytime

I agree on the mousies front, just lost someone kinda vital. Thank you though.

<hugs> that sort of feeling sucks. If you need anything from me, I would do whatever I can.

Thank you. It honestly just helps alot knowing the support is there. I don't know what else to do or say. I just feel it would be wrong not to be thankful even if I have no idea what to really do at this point.

*boop* I'm still around, sorry I haven't talked much but well, life happened and stuff. Good to see you're still around though. *huuuuuug*

Heh yeah, life happens. Sorry I have been quiet as well. Ever since I lost her, well, I have not been doing the best. Hope you are doing ok.

I've been fine, though maybe little busy with things. And yeah, those kind of things take a while... I'll try to pop by to chat once in a while if you need to talk about somethings. *hugs more*

I do appreciate it. I admit the support I have gotten has helped a bit. I don't expect to get over it but trying to avoid being effed up overall. I dun wanna slump my depression on everyone after al, but yeah.

You don't know me and I don't know you, so I have my doubts whether anything I say will be worth anything... even if I believed in the Mythical Sky-fart, I doubt "I'll pray for you" would make much difference... and I can't think of much else to say. So I'll just leave it at "I'll be rooting for you, girl. I hope things get better for you soon." and hope it makes some difference.