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So I just turned 30
10 years ago
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Yeah today is my birthday and I just turned 30. I don't really have any plans for today aside from just stay home and possibly drink up a bit and talk to friends. Might play Undertale for a while. I wanted to just do a short overview of my 20s though and some things I remember.
My 21st birthday sucked first of all. Went to Vegas to visit my dad, step mom and little brother. We went to a casino and I played slots (which I discovered is boring as shit). I ordered jack and coke at dinner but the lady was giving me shit a bit, when I showed her my ID and she wasn't sure what day it is. Then she didn't even bring the right drink. When I got back I ended up drinking myself to pass out with some friends cause I wanted to get wasted as a make up. I dunno if it was really worth it though.
Had my first relationship with someone too. Ended up moving from California to Washington for it. I put a lot of scars into that relationship though with some things I did, but we pulled through them until she finally called it quits with me. It was a 4 year relationship and I learned a lot from it and it also helped me be a more open and much less shy person. However when she broke up with me, that was by far the worst hell I've ever gone through considering I had to live with her to save up money while she was oogling over her new boyfriend over Skype.
She was also the reason I ditched the furry community for a while. After we finally moved away from each other I wasn't really into getting back into it, but eventually just decided to start looking at stuff again. I'm rather glad I did too because I gained a lot of friends from it. I lost a few though as well during that period unfortunately. I still feel bad about the situation and wish it could have gone differently, but what's done is done and all I can do is learn from it and try to move on. I don't like losing friends though, it's really depressing for me.
Another thing I learned is it's possible to build another bridge you might've burned. I cut ties off completely with a close friend because when I finally met up with him after not seeing him for ages, I saw how different our personalities had become and he became rather obsessed with me. I couldn't find any way to just tell him no so I just cut him out of my life completely. Some time later I decided to at least give him an explanation of what happened and we have since become better friends because of it. Maybe down the line that'll happen with the other friend I lost recently, but I don't see that happening anytime soon. If it doesn't at all then that's life.
EDIT: I removed a section about gifts from here because I didn't feel right mentioning this before the day was even really over. I'll make a second journal when the day is over.
My 21st birthday sucked first of all. Went to Vegas to visit my dad, step mom and little brother. We went to a casino and I played slots (which I discovered is boring as shit). I ordered jack and coke at dinner but the lady was giving me shit a bit, when I showed her my ID and she wasn't sure what day it is. Then she didn't even bring the right drink. When I got back I ended up drinking myself to pass out with some friends cause I wanted to get wasted as a make up. I dunno if it was really worth it though.
Had my first relationship with someone too. Ended up moving from California to Washington for it. I put a lot of scars into that relationship though with some things I did, but we pulled through them until she finally called it quits with me. It was a 4 year relationship and I learned a lot from it and it also helped me be a more open and much less shy person. However when she broke up with me, that was by far the worst hell I've ever gone through considering I had to live with her to save up money while she was oogling over her new boyfriend over Skype.
She was also the reason I ditched the furry community for a while. After we finally moved away from each other I wasn't really into getting back into it, but eventually just decided to start looking at stuff again. I'm rather glad I did too because I gained a lot of friends from it. I lost a few though as well during that period unfortunately. I still feel bad about the situation and wish it could have gone differently, but what's done is done and all I can do is learn from it and try to move on. I don't like losing friends though, it's really depressing for me.
Another thing I learned is it's possible to build another bridge you might've burned. I cut ties off completely with a close friend because when I finally met up with him after not seeing him for ages, I saw how different our personalities had become and he became rather obsessed with me. I couldn't find any way to just tell him no so I just cut him out of my life completely. Some time later I decided to at least give him an explanation of what happened and we have since become better friends because of it. Maybe down the line that'll happen with the other friend I lost recently, but I don't see that happening anytime soon. If it doesn't at all then that's life.
EDIT: I removed a section about gifts from here because I didn't feel right mentioning this before the day was even really over. I'll make a second journal when the day is over.
I have alot of arts to do but I'll see what I can do ;D
[you can't tell me no] xD
Also, it's kind of neat looking on the past, see how far you've come whether good or bad O:
Just hope things continue to get better for you~
And yeah things so far seem to be improving for me. Right now money is a bit tight due to situations but I'll survive.
With as eventful as that decade's been, here's to the next one being loads more enjoyable with knowledge gained~
*furiously draws mysterious something*
[CURIOSITY INTENSIFIES]
Haa the life and all obstacles, without this we totally can't learn about our past and our choices, good or bad, and grow up inside. That's not always easy for sure, but it's always for a best !
I hope everything will go always better and better for you Allen ! *chocohuuug* !
Yeah I think I learned a bit this year about the kind of people I should trust and what not. It was a really hard few months in the middle of the year but things have been getting better since I've been getting new friends and all.