I cant do anything on my own effectively...
yes..
i mean that in everyway..
I CAN DO EVERYTHING
but not on my own
I can build a whole fence surrounding a house easily
but not on my own
HOW WOULD THIS MAKE SENSE IF SOMEONE IS HELPING YOU THEN?
thing is ... they dont have to help... they have to just sit there... watch...offer idle chatter..
before i know it the whole fence would be built the night will begin to chill and i go inside for some nice iced water....
Same with homework.. on my own..i wont know the answer .... but SOMETIMES when someone is just there.. I out of nowhere understand the problem.......

and as we speak... here I am... needing to finish an essay .. and i cant even touch it... no matter how hard I try for the passed 6 hours.... nothing was accomplished except the fact I went to the library and could feel pretty stupid about the fact I could of done all my research at home....

I NEED PEOPLE
literally
I
NEED
YOU
GUYS/GIRLS/nonGENDER
its a horrible way to put it , but to those that are reading this , to those who hate, like, or think very little of me
People indeed are the greatest resource ...\
whenever i stream to color , im greatful for those one or two that come ...
ESPECIALLY SOME PIECE OF SHIT LETTUCE LEAF THAT HAS MINT ON HIS EARS
if it werent for those few who come.. i may not be able to accomplish anything....

in retrospect... this is a vent ya...

and ill be honest... as much as I need you guys...
I dont go to you..
for example I was offered literally 100 snicker bars for halloween....I only took 5....
I hate feeling like I take anything from anyone...there could be no consequences or reward...I just wouldnt do it...
my mindset is weird.. I hope to fix it..