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Where I've been ~ Life Update
10 years ago
So I haven't posted a journal in a long time, and I haven't really done more than lurk for a while now. I haven't given up on the fandom or anything like that, Life just kind of got in the way.
I haven't been well now for almost a year, though I'm not sure everyone knows this. In September 2014 I started getting ill. By January 2015 I was going to the hospital at least once a week and I was only getting worse. In February I had surgery for a congenital birth defect called an Intestinal Malrotation. While they hoped it would fix the issue, it hasn't. I've continued with being ill regularly, almost always seem to be tired, and they've tried giving me different medicines and running different tests to see if they could find something that works with no change.
In June, my job finally decided I wasn't worth keeping around due to my illness. They let me go with little to no warning and I had to deal with quite a bit of depression. Thankfully, in August I started working part/full time at a local place where I felt like I wasn't being walked all over, or treated like shit. I wasn't working 12 hour shifts and I was treated like an actual person.
Last week I finally managed to get in to see a gastroenterologist at the closest University Hospital. He's scheduled me for two more tests, both of which are coming before the end of the month. I'm not sure what answers we're going to get from them, but I'm hoping for a few new answers from the result.
Life does manage to screw up plans, but I wanted everyone to know I'm still here ~ I'm not around as much as I'd like to be due to medical and trying to juggle my job. Right now, I'm still scared, still dealing with some depression, and trying not to let the med things stress me out without much luck.
My beautiful Fiance Bella has been keeping me sane and helping me the whole way. She's yet to miss a single doctor's appointment or test. She refuses to allow me to go by myself, which she knows I hate doing. Honestly, I couldn't have a better person by my side through all of this. Even with everything, she still tells me how much she loves me every day. She's the kind of person I couldn't go on without.
To my followers, I'm happy to see all the new faces! You guys are amazing, and you're the only reason I even bother posting what little art I do. You make my day when you comment, or send encouragement. Sometimes that's all it takes to make me smile.
To my friends, I'm sorry I haven't been around like I should. I'm sorry I haven't been there through the ups and downs. I love all of you more than I can say. And the fact that when I do manage to have the energy to get on and talk to people, you continue to welcome me with open arms. So seriously guys, from the bottom of my heart,
Thank you for being there and not giving up on me when I disappear for long periods.
I love you guys.
You and Bella can do it! I believe in the two of you.