Goodbye
10 years ago
I really can't deal with things anymore.
First my grandad now my dad is ill.
Ive lost so many friends and been betrayed by those closest to me.
I don't know why I'm writing this, nobody cares. And if I turned up dead tomorrow, nobody would care and would soon forget about me.
I'm scum. Dirty pathetic, fucked up in the head scum...
First my grandad now my dad is ill.
Ive lost so many friends and been betrayed by those closest to me.
I don't know why I'm writing this, nobody cares. And if I turned up dead tomorrow, nobody would care and would soon forget about me.
I'm scum. Dirty pathetic, fucked up in the head scum...
Yeas you have the people here who like you and want you, but they are not "there" with you, beside you in real life. You want nothing more than real hugs with the friends you have here. Perhaps you even fantasize about the characters, the creatures who you wish you could snuggle with and be affectionate with.
I know what you are going through, it is the worst feeling one can go through because it is a mental, internal and physical pain.
I can be right there to give you that real life hug and make you feel valued, but I can do it right here. Its the best any of us can do.
It is hard, but you've got to hold onto that. You can't give up, it is so easy to when you feel like this, but it isn't the answer.
You exist for a reason, and you'll find it. I cant promise how or when, but I know you will find the thing and the person who makes you feel yourself and completes your yearning for what is missing in your life.