Happiness seems to be really hard to find lately. I've noticed that things that used to make me happy before does nothing for me anymore.
I used to be able to play video games for hours. I would literally spend anywhere between 12-14 hours aday playing World of Warcraft or other video games and I was happy doing it. Now not so much. I can barely enjoy WoW or video games anymore. Whenever I play a video game now adays I have to force myself to play the game because it's a way to waste time even though I don't get any happiness out of it. I also used to love to create things or try new things whenever I could. I used to be an avid story writer and youtube content creator. But the last story I wrote I gave up on and I haven't uploaded a video to youtube in something like a year or something. Aswell as I used to try new things like graffiti painting or cosplay creating or even baking. Now I get no joy out of any of that and I don't understand why. It almost feels as if I have lost my purpouse in life and I can't seem to find it again. My days are just waisting time until I get to go back to sleep. And I'm trying everything I can to fix it but I can't even do the simplest of things to make me happy anymore. One big example is I used to really love to talk to my friends. I would literally spend atleast 7-8 hours talking to my best friend Adam and playing games with him. Now I can barely talk to him for 30 minutes without wanting to leave the skype call. And it's not his fault. He is always really interesting and funny to talk to and he tries so hard to be patient with me and he is a saint for that I know that I would have lost my patience long ago if I had to deal with myself probably. I just really seem to lack all energy to do anything anymore and since I don't find any joy in anything I used to do I just don't do any of it anymore.

To sum it all up happiness is hard to find and I really wish I could be happy over even the tiniest thing but I just can't