FA+
Shop
Things of Import
10 years ago
It's a shame, I tend to speak so eloquently in text at times, but never in actual conversation. Strange, when I adore such dialogue.
OKAY! So, um... First of, I just want to say that I have a book out! It's called Wayward Realm: Poetry from a Fox. http://www.weaselpress.com/#!wayward-realm/msw4l There's a list of sites on the page where you can purchase a copy, from Amazon to Barnes&Noble.
Second... I've realized I've grown out of touch with the furry fandom. I don't comment anymore (though that's not much of a difference, I rarely commented anyways.), nor do I look at any artwork and listen to music. Or READ! I need to read more. I do. I'm lazy, though. And picky. I don't want to read a book online or on a Kindle. I want to read it in my hands. >.>
Third... The typical 'woe is me' and other gripes because I'm a needy little fuck and I'm getting tired of just being quiet and shelved off. You know... I was hoping my streaming would pick up. It hasn't. Ran into a funk. Why? Don't feel like anyone is interested at all. Which bothers me. The last journal, I posted my stream channel. Not a single follow. I advertise when I stream on my Twitter. No one comes. This makes me wonder how much support for things do I really have. Probably a good portion of that is my fault. I'm not active with my shit. I feel discouraged. It's honestly a lot of wasted work, in my eyes, when I stream for a few hours and not a single person pops on. Even people that do follow me tend not to show up. They have other streams to go to that they see as more interesting or whatever. I know I'm new to this, this is just me and my typical complaining. And it is because of this, after thinking a lot during my shower today (because people LOVE to know things like this, oh my god.), that I'm gonna try and make a change. I'm gonna start back into the fandom and actually PROMOTE myself. I always felt awkward, giving a comment on random pictures and whatnot, but that's one form of networking. Also, ASKING people to support me. Not random people, though. You lot, who, for some ungodly reason, stuck through and keep around even though I've been so absent. I'm going to write more. I've said this so many times, but I plan to do so. I know what my problems are now. It's not that I'm ignorant and can't come up with content (though it feels like I am and such at times), but because I actually need a medium to base my work on. I CAN come up with stuff on my own, but I've noticed my talent comes from bringing to life things I hear, things I see. A lot of my poetry comes from looking at some pieces of artwork, wonderful music echoing in my ears. Just as a musician can flood the senses with vivid sounds or a picture send chills and sensations, so too can my poetry. I've always loved the twisting of words, the constriction, the imagery that comes from old world poetry, and I've taken that unto my own style, and I can say I'm fucking proud of that. EVEN more so that it made me some money. My book actually sold. It actually sold at a public reading. I sold out. That made me so happy. That was something I did, that people enjoyed, that people wanted to support. That is an amazing feeling that I will never forget. I've had people say they like this and that, but not anyone that said "I want to make you money." Never had anyone encourage me to do an event, which I WILL be doing, you can ask
systematicweasel for the details when he gets that situated. Now, I sit here and say I want support from you guys. I know that's a lot. You've seen my work, y'all wouldn't be sticking around if you didn't like it. I want more of a reason to do this. Doing this as a hobby... It gets a little draining. I used to say that I didn't want a little fame. I'm lying to myself. I lie to myself a lot of times because I want to be modest. I never wanted to be seen as great because that's something that's easily torn down. Not anymore. I can sit here and say I'm an amazing writer. I'm an amazing gamer, and I can be one HELL of an entertainer if given the chance. I can sing (I rag on my own voice so much, but others like it, and I know it's fitting for some genres). I'd LOVE to do public readings. I have that old storyteller voice that just sweeps a person down into the world I'm describing. So please, support my book. Support my writing. Support my streaming. It was such a letdown to see not a single interest in those things. It made me want to give up on this site. I'll try to be more active. That is my fault. I also plan to support others. I don't advertise much for my friends, for my favorite streamers, artists, musicians, writers. I need to. I plan to. I no longer claim to be antisocial, because holy fuck, I make a damn effort at times to try and get in touch with people. Tired of bringing my own self down. ... So yea, done with that. Had a bundle of energy, and needed to get ALL of that out. Now excuse me as I take my time whittling down my 17k+ submissions.
OKAY! So, um... First of, I just want to say that I have a book out! It's called Wayward Realm: Poetry from a Fox. http://www.weaselpress.com/#!wayward-realm/msw4l There's a list of sites on the page where you can purchase a copy, from Amazon to Barnes&Noble.
Second... I've realized I've grown out of touch with the furry fandom. I don't comment anymore (though that's not much of a difference, I rarely commented anyways.), nor do I look at any artwork and listen to music. Or READ! I need to read more. I do. I'm lazy, though. And picky. I don't want to read a book online or on a Kindle. I want to read it in my hands. >.>
Third... The typical 'woe is me' and other gripes because I'm a needy little fuck and I'm getting tired of just being quiet and shelved off. You know... I was hoping my streaming would pick up. It hasn't. Ran into a funk. Why? Don't feel like anyone is interested at all. Which bothers me. The last journal, I posted my stream channel. Not a single follow. I advertise when I stream on my Twitter. No one comes. This makes me wonder how much support for things do I really have. Probably a good portion of that is my fault. I'm not active with my shit. I feel discouraged. It's honestly a lot of wasted work, in my eyes, when I stream for a few hours and not a single person pops on. Even people that do follow me tend not to show up. They have other streams to go to that they see as more interesting or whatever. I know I'm new to this, this is just me and my typical complaining. And it is because of this, after thinking a lot during my shower today (because people LOVE to know things like this, oh my god.), that I'm gonna try and make a change. I'm gonna start back into the fandom and actually PROMOTE myself. I always felt awkward, giving a comment on random pictures and whatnot, but that's one form of networking. Also, ASKING people to support me. Not random people, though. You lot, who, for some ungodly reason, stuck through and keep around even though I've been so absent. I'm going to write more. I've said this so many times, but I plan to do so. I know what my problems are now. It's not that I'm ignorant and can't come up with content (though it feels like I am and such at times), but because I actually need a medium to base my work on. I CAN come up with stuff on my own, but I've noticed my talent comes from bringing to life things I hear, things I see. A lot of my poetry comes from looking at some pieces of artwork, wonderful music echoing in my ears. Just as a musician can flood the senses with vivid sounds or a picture send chills and sensations, so too can my poetry. I've always loved the twisting of words, the constriction, the imagery that comes from old world poetry, and I've taken that unto my own style, and I can say I'm fucking proud of that. EVEN more so that it made me some money. My book actually sold. It actually sold at a public reading. I sold out. That made me so happy. That was something I did, that people enjoyed, that people wanted to support. That is an amazing feeling that I will never forget. I've had people say they like this and that, but not anyone that said "I want to make you money." Never had anyone encourage me to do an event, which I WILL be doing, you can ask
systematicweasel for the details when he gets that situated. Now, I sit here and say I want support from you guys. I know that's a lot. You've seen my work, y'all wouldn't be sticking around if you didn't like it. I want more of a reason to do this. Doing this as a hobby... It gets a little draining. I used to say that I didn't want a little fame. I'm lying to myself. I lie to myself a lot of times because I want to be modest. I never wanted to be seen as great because that's something that's easily torn down. Not anymore. I can sit here and say I'm an amazing writer. I'm an amazing gamer, and I can be one HELL of an entertainer if given the chance. I can sing (I rag on my own voice so much, but others like it, and I know it's fitting for some genres). I'd LOVE to do public readings. I have that old storyteller voice that just sweeps a person down into the world I'm describing. So please, support my book. Support my writing. Support my streaming. It was such a letdown to see not a single interest in those things. It made me want to give up on this site. I'll try to be more active. That is my fault. I also plan to support others. I don't advertise much for my friends, for my favorite streamers, artists, musicians, writers. I need to. I plan to. I no longer claim to be antisocial, because holy fuck, I make a damn effort at times to try and get in touch with people. Tired of bringing my own self down. ... So yea, done with that. Had a bundle of energy, and needed to get ALL of that out. Now excuse me as I take my time whittling down my 17k+ submissions.
As to the second part - you're a writer - you should be used to this by now. The only way to have any feedback at all is to put yourself out there and participate even if you seem to be the only one doing so. I will mention the Thursday Prompt here. That's the one thing I do regardless of all else and even then sometimes like everyone else I get so blocked up I can't move (time wise).
Never stop trying, though at times it is very discouraging.
V.
Oh, I know it, definitely do. Just never actually tried to put myself out there until recently. Never took writing as a profession seriously on my end til now. Just never been one to jump into social things. Need to, though. Need to get out of this timid nature. ... I've always been wanting to do the Thursday Prompt, but never brought myself around to do so. I should do that at least once.
I've been shopping for an agent - and every email I send out brings back the sound of crickets...
V.
Congratulations on your book and the venue.
Timid Nature? You have now spoken to us here with more force and voice then you ever have in the past. It is in you already and I know you can do it. Just get to work because you have already proven yourself.
Hope to it Sen, you have the will, the evidence, and the support.
Thank you so much for this comment, truly. If it hadn't been for your nudging and slaps to the head, I probably wouldn't have even pursued my form of poetry as it is now.