And She Passed.
10 years ago
Well moms gone. Didnt get to do the experimental meds and see if they would work. Sucks I know most of you will say I did my best, and thanks. But I didn't get to try every option. So I'll forever fill work was unfinished.
She At least got to see My brother and I make it to our 36th (me) and 34th(my brother) Birthday's, but wish
we could have seen her make it to 63 this December, and then some.
She At least got to see My brother and I make it to our 36th (me) and 34th(my brother) Birthday's, but wish
we could have seen her make it to 63 this December, and then some.
As most of you know I'm high functioning autistic, so I don't always "feel" things or undrstand what I'm feeling, but Ma was one of the few people that made me fell human and not like a robot. I want to thank Cousin Lonnie, for trying to do all he can do on his end, and my sister Monique, for being annoying. My brother Sean helped out too near the end, just wish everything got together sooner and didn't take so much time for it to get into our hands.
Even if we got the experimental meds sooner and it still didn't work, for us, or at least mom and my self, it would have really felt like we truly did all that we could have done.
-peace
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UwUoAJLv5dU
When my grandfather passed, I arrived just moments before to visit him, unknowing this was the last time. He had been battling Parkinson's for years.. I held his hand for several minutes, trying hard to hold back. The nurse explained to me the medical reasons they knew it would happen at any moment. After she checked on him, she turned to me and asked for me to step out. it was happening. I sat in the hallway, and sobbed. 15 minutes later, she came out and told me that he had passed away.
It was strange, I wasn't crying because I felt bad that my grandfather was gone.. i was sad, because i would never be able to have any more memories of him. I felt guilty for this.. I felt selfish. It was hard to wrap my head around it, and very confusing.
In time and a lot of reflection i came to realize what i want to share with you,
Try not to be sad that your mother is gone. Don't feel guilty for things that were beyond your control. Celebrate her life to give it meaning, and try to be glad that you had so many years to know and love her. :)
my sympathies and condelences; from all you have said she was strong and a fighter to the end, and after nearly losing my own father recently, I hope that wherever her spirit has gone, she is smiling and watching you, as mothers love to do
I hope you find comfort that she lives on in you and every thing you do, and in us as well as you allowed us to share in her life.