i would if i wasnt moving soon x:

There are plenty of people out there with money
I just want a few DA points to get a little icon I'm wanting to cheer me up while we are having a hard time but I guess not

oh believe me i know how you feel?
i want a lot of art (not even a lot just like one or two pieces) because it was mine and davids anniversary two days ago
but because of moving and all that nope nope.

there are plenty of people out there but theres also the fact that a lot of them havent gotten paid yet.
the end of the month is the worst for art at times.

That is true but like I just want DA points and not even real money lol. I know lots of people have a couple hundred points just chilling they don't use cause I use to be like that lol.
Also happy anniversary

i personally dont lol. i dont ever want to dabble in da points jus t because the system is SO FUCKED LOL. but i mean you could always just go to da and hold out the collection bucket maybe? I figure youve done it already. maybe a donation pool? Ive seen those successful for the stupidest shit.
thank you!

Really? It's never worked for me xD

oh o.O

yeah though. thats all i see. "DONATION FOR 4000 POINTS PLS" its filled like 2 days after and theyre some nobody.

i think faving a lot of stuff and trying to get around helps.

I'm trying on that but it's hard when art is starting to drain you v.v;

But the person I want the icon from is wanting an adopt and I'm like lemme give you something for one omg

yeah i know what you mean, i havent uploaded art in like 2 weeks so this is me catching up D:
ooo hopefully they'll bite :>

I need to try and figure out how to stop making art like a chore. Cause I love to draw and shit but I never can think of poses, I suck at digital sketching, I can't draw arms, legs, hands, or feet, I keep playing with styles and don't have what I want, and honestly the lack of a fanbase like others have is really getting me down. I don't even want a commission for the money anymore, just he acknowledgment of being an artist worthy of throwing a couple bucks at.

honestly to learn how to love drawing and not make it seem like a chore is a hard one.

You have to learn to love it truly, like even if youre not completely satisfied, or you are satisfied, YOU have to be the one that is. Attitude is a huge huge part of being a good artist too. If I have days where I feel like the world is so against me and that I have nothing good on my art plate, the radiating effects of my attitude reflect on my art. When I act and feel good about myself and drawing, it also reflects so very much-so, and it shows in people's responses!

You just need to keep on practicing and practicing. I used to be HORRID at most appendages, my legs looked lumpy, my hands looked like my feet, and my hands looked like mittens at one point. I'm still learning how to draw torsos and get proportions right, so even though I've been drawing for so long, I'm still learning too! (Hell even my shading can be off sometimes D: )

For poses though I'd use those free pose sites where they have references that you can doodle from.

Honestly even my style's been changing lately, I even switched to a new signature LOL.

You just really gotta sit down and make it be your own thing, and really love it. It might take a day, it might take a month. It all depends!

Free pose site?
And yeah that might be a problem seeing as I hate the fuck outa myself v.v

http://daposes.deviantart.com/
http://fyeah-artreferences.tumblr.com/
http://www.posemaniacs.com/
https://www.human-anatomy-for-artist.com/

its the first things that came up when I googled "free pose reference" x)

Yeah, that might :< you shouldn't be so hard on yourself though!

Thanks dear~
And yeah like I'd love to not be hard on myself but I HATEEE myself. Being transgender and having zero money and not being able to make money because my head is too fucked to let me makes me so pissed with myself. To be honest with you.. If I didn't know my fiance would have a lot of trouble without me. I would have killed myself by now.

No problem! (•̀o•́)ง
Believe me I know what you mean? While I'm not trans I've been going through a lot of really horrid shit that's really affected how I see myself and I've been down some dark roads, especially these last few months. I don't have the ultimate thought of suicidal idealization but at the same time I do question myself a lot. If it wasn't for the fact that I'm finally about to leave my abusive household and get the hell outta this dodgy situation I've been in this last year, I probably would have just gave up too.

But the thing is that even if shit seems like its the worst, you still have people that care about you and want you to believe and succeed! Eventually the bad karma worked up will dissipate, you just have to hold on.

I mean hell I'm 22, and the last 7 years I've lost two very important family members, moved many times, gotten kicked out of my house (twice), and lost pets and such along the way, but of the losses I've been slowly gaining.

(•̀o•́)ง It will come for you too!! You just gotta believe!!

I think that's something that has me so down.
I have very little people supporting me. My entire family has disowned me. I have very little friends because most of them fucked me over and left me v.v I just don't have the support my depression needs but :/ there is nothing I can do about it.

Even little support is better than nothing! 'A'

I'd say maybe try to find places to reach out. People who are in support groups aren't going to be judgey or anything they just want to help!

But the part about that is the social anxiety xD
My depression wants social
My anxiety wants nothing to do with that.

Doesnt have to be in a social group that you see, you could just find a forum or something like that.

Online helps lol!

I've thought about it but I've always been so nervous about it.