Took my meds, and have my Neurology appointment in a little bit less than 2 hours. OH LORD I AM SCARED
Here is a SHORT list of the what ifs my brain has been spaming since 9:30:
What if it is cancer that the ct missed?
What if i cant do any job at all?
what if i have major brain damage and it is spreading?
what if there is a fungus eating my brain?
what if i have a parasite?
what if i have a concussion from youth that never got treated and now the damage is coming back to haunt me?
What if i only have a few months to live?
I cant afford treatment of any of these. and by the rules of the hospital until i pay off this visit in full i cant schedule anything else.
I am crying inside, stone wall outside, and horrified for my life. I really hope to god it is something easily fixed.