Oh the things I have to do to get my family to listen. So tonights sleepless effort ended up pleasently for me. After having my mother not listen when I told her I wanted to kill myself I retreated back to my room and did what I do best. I decided that I have to be more descriptive if I want people to listen to me. So I went back to my room and got out my excato knife and well I think most people can guess what I ended up doing. Long story short I came back down bleeding from my arms and laughing that's what I had to do to get my mother to take me seriously. And after that she ofcourse asked if I needed to go to a hospital. I told her I really can't feel pain anymore and she immidiently said that if I seek medical attention I will go back to the psych ward. To be honest Id rather die than go back there so I guess that's my option if my psychiatrist can't help me.

Anyway have some pictures from tonights little adventure.

http://imgur.com/a/pMRZ4