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10 years ago
Well, I don't really journal here much these days. So I figured those who dont follow me elsewhere might want to know whats going on. I got really busy irl with work so Dreamcatcher got shelved for a while. Working on a heavy amount of work overtime for a long sustained period and its finally slowing down a bit. I am going to try to get my SE license in the next year and a half.
Besides that the most dramatic news is I have finally started to address my internal gender identity issues I have kept tied down since I was a young teen. Its been a confusing thing and I am still not sure how I want to address it or if how I identify is correct. But there are multiple reasons I have come to see myself as gender fluid. When I mentally identify as the opposite gender and accent that both in how I present and how I act in my private life it actually makes it easier and stronger feelings of identifying as my birth gender later. This flux is potent and when I embrace both sides it makes me much more comfortable. Of course this is more than likely the source of my love of werewolves and transformation when it comes down to it. Of course the real problem is there is no way this can actually be real physically but at least due to being born female I can get away with crossdressing from a societal standpoint fairly regularly. In the end though I give much less care about how other people see me and I am not going to be enforcing or expecting pronoun changes or anything of the sort. This is more of an internal way if handling my weird tidal fluxes. Bipolar, Gender Fluid, Creative/Logical, my whole life is a constant ebb and flow. I guess it makes sense my gender matches the rest of it.
I am still grabbing art. I have some stuff upcoming soon. Though only one planned TF piece. After xmas I should have more art budget again and am going to be getting some more transformation art, probably starring my character.
Besides that the most dramatic news is I have finally started to address my internal gender identity issues I have kept tied down since I was a young teen. Its been a confusing thing and I am still not sure how I want to address it or if how I identify is correct. But there are multiple reasons I have come to see myself as gender fluid. When I mentally identify as the opposite gender and accent that both in how I present and how I act in my private life it actually makes it easier and stronger feelings of identifying as my birth gender later. This flux is potent and when I embrace both sides it makes me much more comfortable. Of course this is more than likely the source of my love of werewolves and transformation when it comes down to it. Of course the real problem is there is no way this can actually be real physically but at least due to being born female I can get away with crossdressing from a societal standpoint fairly regularly. In the end though I give much less care about how other people see me and I am not going to be enforcing or expecting pronoun changes or anything of the sort. This is more of an internal way if handling my weird tidal fluxes. Bipolar, Gender Fluid, Creative/Logical, my whole life is a constant ebb and flow. I guess it makes sense my gender matches the rest of it.
I am still grabbing art. I have some stuff upcoming soon. Though only one planned TF piece. After xmas I should have more art budget again and am going to be getting some more transformation art, probably starring my character.
